I'm on Season 1, Day 2.
Today I went to Lilou’s website and did the 4 minute meditation – dropping right into relaxation is not an issue for me, in fact I pretty much jump in feet first, and go into a dreamlike state. However, when I’m there I cannot control the direction of my thoughts and many times I don’t even remember them. I stayed in the state for probably 5 minutes after the video and I don’t know where I went, and suddenly I woke up. So almost 10 minutes, that was a good start I thought. I then decided to try the 9 minute meditation, by about minute 2 I had lost the video and occasionally heard Lilou’s voice but was pretty much asleep. When I awoke afterwards I felt so tired, I went to my bed and promptly passed out for 20 minutes until my sister called and woke me up. So, yay for being successful and meditating for about 20 minutes today, but not too sure on why it caused me to nap – don’t have any idea what I dreamed in my nap either.
I guess I’m wondering, if I can’t control my meditations, or even remember my meditations, are they still effective? What’s a good way to ‘organize’ meditation to make it a useful tool instead of random dreaming? How can I remember the things that I thought about while meditating? I feel like I need a Meditating 101 class, but not sure where to go for this. Anyone have suggestions, guidance, things for me to try?