(WARNING: Mature matter content ahead)
I've decided that I am going to practice, slowly appreciating each day as i will practice living as if my soulmate and I are already together as well as many other exercises laid out in Arielle Ford's The Soulmate Secret. With this being explained. She mentioned that her readers should have as much FUN as they possibly could while waiting patiently for their soulmate.
So as I am patiently waiting for my soulmate, I just recently hooked up with this girl. Let's call her "Wynita". I'm keeping her real official name classified for privacy purposes. For real, for real, it is her who has the crush on me, so I decided to not turn away from her just because of the sake of meeting my real true love. Wynita doesn't of course meet all the criterias as laid out on my "perfect girlfriend" list but she does have large breasts which drew me to her to begin with.
In the Soulmate Secret, Arielle stresses the importance of doing all those things people say that they are going to do AFTER their soulmate has arrived and has insited that we should do those things while they are NOT here yet. I do open my mind to learning something new and we were making arrangements of going to the movies with her. Well, Wynita and I were flirting via the phone on the bus ride home from school. That's one thing. But there are just some things that i DEFINATELLY WILL NOT DO until my real mate has arrived. Wynita wanted to kiss me after I talked about the whole "caressing and holding" thing.
I will NOT allow her to kiss me.
I will NOT kiss her.
I will not have sex with her and I will not marry her!
The thing is, if Wynita just fit one certain little criteria on my ideal list that she doesn't fit and cannot fit, I wouldn't mind going the extra mile with her. I mean, I am becoming intimate with Wynita. It's just that I can't go too deep down and intimate with her because as I have never been kissed or gave a kiss by a woman in my life (except for my parents but that doesn't count!) I insisted that my first kiss be exchanged from my soulmate which Wynita is NOT. Anyhow, am I doing the right thing? I would've thought based on the teachings from Arielle's book that I should be single and opened for a relationship. I can't say I'm single but am open for a relationship with my one true love when that real, right lover appears. But then, I don't wanna just dump Wynita just because the soulmate appeared right then and there! Wynita (not her real name) is just the substitute to cover for my real soulmate until she arrives and I was wondering if I was doing the right thing?