Mostly this feels REALLY exciting & I am looking forward to this AND I felt this MASSIVE PEACE in my heart when I made that decision. And - for once - I got NO resistance from hubby he was like if it's what you want go for it I want you to be happy etc.
Now my boss and even colleagues may be a different story. There is a strong possibility that my assistant through her lack of training - which we have encouraged her to get - could be laid off within two years and the other one has talked of leaving and the third will leave at some stage. They know I will not be there "forever" but not how soon I want to leave. They ARE fond of me.
My boss asked me last September?? how long I plan to stay and I said maybe five years, maybe 10 maybe 20 and she looked a bit disappointed & said I hope it is not five, I have invested a lot in you.
She has not invested money in me far as I know but yes I had to work there till September to get visas extended then UK passport BUT I am throwing in another year and 10 months here that I don't HAVE to work there.
Plus I work my butt off there so it's not like she gets nothing back - if fact she is happy with what I do.
However she will tell the kids we work with the follow their dreams - well what about MY dreams?!!
The main reason I changed my mind is cos every two years - it used to be five - the government inspects us but those years the pressure increases and there's a LOT of pressure on us all ANYWAY so these years - this is one - are worse so I vowed to myself no more!
It's never been my dream job. Maybe no job/career ever will be but my heart is telling me to go. I have and do do all I can to appreciate the good points and some things HAVE changed - it's AMAZING!!
Things have already begun lining up for it - it's like the Universe is telling me to go for it which is ALSO AMAZING!
I believe I DESERVE to have my dream job & career (not to be treated like a little child or servant!!) I deserve to be happy. Freedom is one of my highest values.
My husband says "I am born free."
So am I. I crave freedom, flexibility and fun.
Of COURSE I appreciate my job and all I have benefited from it SO much!
Anyway, I realise it's ages away but any advice on how to deal with guilt traps from the boss when I DO tell her - she may even ask me this month or in July or September this year what my plans are - how do I handle it?
Or if my assistant or other colleagues get upset?? I HAVE said to them - dropped hints - I'm sick of these inspections & don't want to go through another! (Though as much as possible I am trying to focus on what I DO want)
I DO care about my boss & colleagues and how they feel but I
need my freedom!
(P.S. I also juggle at least 4 roles there - enough! I am happy to help re-train someone else to my level if needed.)
I am taking a career change for the most part, with some teaching but also other things as well. So it's not like I'm going to another school for another permanent full time job.
Thank you SO much in advance for any help & advice!!