Instead of adding to this to the "comments" section, I wanted to hear what my co-creators think about this...
Yesterday, I spent the day working online & laying in the grass watching abraham videos, so the only money I spent was my daily amount to my taxes & student loans. I feel good about paying these off daily as they are rather large and for years, I have felt that I would always have a student loan debt.
WELL... this is NO LONGER HOW I FEEL! I fully trust that my student loan will be paid off in full in 10 years or less!!! My taxes 5 years or less!! (they are really big!!!)
So then like Patricia, I sometimes stopped myself from spending because in "the past' whenever I spent money it would come back and haunt me .. "If I only hadn't taken that trip to Paris" "if I only hadn't had an art studio" -
If I hadn't, I wouldn't be where I am right now!!
I know this however, ... I don't FEEL it just yet!
I think this is where I have guilt that I am irresponsible - if I hadn't had my art studio or if I hadn't lived by myself then perhaps I wouldn't owe so much in taxes. Am I irresponsible because I made these choices? Am I being irresponsible now?
I don't really regret having my art studio because OH MY!! It was where I had a place to really become a painter!! And living alone in my small one bedroom apartment allowed me the space to have amazing lovers and this was so important for me.
And even as I write this - I still feel twinges of irresponsibility because I can't pay off my debts right now... and yet I know if I allow myself time to fully become the artist that I am capable of being - I will be paid well to share my work with the world!!
wow ... this feels really good to put out in words!!
I'd love to hear anyone else's issues with guilt and money?!
As well as any tips to release the guilt .. it just doesn't feel good anymore and I prefer feeling good!!!
magic passion love!!