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So, I've come to know about The Secret, the Law of Attraction, ever since '06 and while at some case I was sucessful in appliying it, I've failed here and then, and somehow it's because of me. I will cover those later.
So last summer, I asked the Universe for $10 grand. After days of visualizing it, having the money, feeling the money, I just for some reason couldn't get the $10,000 to come to me. But months before that I would find it easier to ask for $300 or $400, and it would be given to me from my relatives. I did find $5 once on the bus and once under a desk at school and MAN THAT felt guuud!!! Now I've asked to win the $200,000. I didn't. The Universe found a better way to get me the $200,000 I'm asking for now.
About a year ago, I've asked the Universe for a laptop, a specific kind of Dell laptop. I would feel it, feel the passion, feel the keypad... and for some reason I can't seem to manifest that either! What is it that I'm doing wrong? How much passion does the Universe want from me for it to give me my laptop? I mean, I know I'm AFFIRMING that I don't have it but before that I wasn't able to manifest the kind of laptop that I want.
I have had things that I've wanted, like $200,000, a laptop, entertainment memorabilia, but I don't know why but because I'm a beginner, I haven't been able to manifest the BIGGER things, I mean, I tried smaller things like some clay, a special DVD, but later wanted them one day and then a week later say, "Y'know what, this can wait..." Some people are going to throw this advice my way but I DID do a graditude list of all the things I can think of to be grateful for. Because seriously people! How can be so ungrateful and want more? I mean, It's okay to want more than what you already ahve but be grateful for what you already have now! and be grateful that the things that you want are on their way. Like I know that somehow, even though I've given up on them, the money, the laptop, the movie costumes are all on their way to me...
Another thing I've been trying to manifest for a yeah and MY MOST IMPORTANT MANIFESTATION GOAL, manifesting a girlfriend. I've wanted to manifest my ideal woman for a year now but April '09 is when I REALLY knew the type of woman that I wanted and I have a good few of her pictures (another woman that looks like her). I would visualize her everyday. I even said the day before Spring Break, "Y'know what? I will meet my ideal woman right after Spring Break." Still failed, but I KNOW THAT SHE IS ON HER WAY TO ME SOMEHOW!!! I WILL SEE HER VERY SOON!
HOWEVER!!! When I go out into the world or venture on a trip, the affirmative thought that "Oh! This is where I may meet my ideal woman" always finds its way into my head and I think that's what's blcoking her from coming to me!?!?! I'm not supposed to worry about the "hows" of things! I'm supposed to know that the things and people I want will come to me and that they already came!!! I need to stop these thoughts. When I visualize sitting in her van with her, being in bed with her, kissing each other, and carssing each other (excuse me if i'm being inappropriate), I actually feel the passion and MAN... it feels soo right! It feels so right being in a van with her. Mmm! Even though I did my daily visualization of her today... I'm thinking about it again right now... and just seeing her in my head,,, even without closeing my eyes... It just feels SOOO RIGHT!!! She looks just like the woman i have posted on my vision board!!!
Affirmations that I'm about to start practicing:
All the things that I want materialize quickly and effortlessly!
God knows everything that I want and cares!
I am having a healthy, wonderful relationship with my voluptuous full-figured girlfriend!
I am a loving person.
- I'm not giving up but do any of you suppose when i don't do my visualization for ONE DAY and say to the universe, "Y'know what, I'm letting it go to you and may you handle this the way YOU intended it Universe!" will it actually work? I mean, I did this for other minor things and it happened for me! And I visualize this girl EVERY DAY!!!... like I'm supposed to...
- Affirmations like "Where is it, it ain't here" tend to block manifestations but say when you're in debt and you say to the Universe, "I'm not in debt" will only keep you in debt. HOW???
Thoughs? They are all gratly appriciated. OH! Thank you very much for taking the time to read this long message and replying!…
as identified by the book 'cosmic ordering for beginners and will slowly over the next week be making a vision board and identifying
During the night last night I actually started at 11/11/11 00:00 this morning, I wrote rather a lot of intentions down which fall into the 5 'pillars' catagories relationshis, finances profession, body & personal development. Here is an edited version (because it would take me all night to write everything out.
Relationships: There is a pithy saying on fridge magnets everywhere that 'friends are the family you choose' I will build new and strengthen existing friendships with the fascinating and inspiring friends I know and those I am yet meet. All of my relationships are enjoyable, supportive, supported comfortable, relaxed, and full of love trust light and laughter. My love life is beyond my wildest dreams amazing.
Finances: I am attracting enough money to pay the bills, be able to buy and run an eco friendly car, pay for things like new clothes without holes in/paint on, a new winter coast and jumper, a hair cut, make up and have enough money to go to the theatre, gigs, festivals, holidays that I want to go on and be able to actually start a savings account, upgrade my phone contract, buy a new camera and be out of my overdraft & give to charity. Money is in abundance for me.
Profession: My 'business' as an artist is thriving and flourishing. I am amazing myself with the artworks I create. I have a brilliant network of fellow artists, galleristas curators and art world inhabitants who I have brilliant working relationships with and support, encourage and promote my work. I'm disciplined and organised with studio time, admin, marketing & publicity.I attract high quality galleries and collectors to show and purchase my artwork. I'm getting national and international publicity for my work and am exhibiting internationally at major galleries. My art helps make the world a better place by bringing inspiration to millions of people across this beautiful planet earth and encouraging the world to live in peace, love, light and harmony with themselves each other and the world.
Body - My body and mind feel healthy energetic and inspired. I eat three healthy meals a day, I walk in nature in the morning before work, and go for a walk up the hills at least twice a week. start and continue yoga lessons, tai chi lessons and go to the Sangha (buddist thingy) at the wheel of life centre.
Personal Development -I am learning and growing in myself all the time and am becoming more spiritual and more sociable and loving balenced and happy person everyday. I nurture my connection with nature and I'm mindful and live with an open heart in the present moment as much as I can.
And in general allow the universe to bring me the most magical beautiful and happy way of life I can possibly lead. I enjoy being inspired by my beautiful life and am gaining momentum in all areas moment by moment..
This day 11/11/11 has been an interesting experience for me, I had the day off from painting to attend an 11/11/11 11:11:11 event in Worcester (My nearest city). I only got about 4 hours sleep last night, I've been having a bit of a bout of insomnia this week so I ended up journalling for about 3 hours before i finally felt ready to go to bed, recently around the time of the full moon each month I always have to do lots of night time journalling or my mind wont let me sleep, I had one of those mornings where the universe just wants you to be late for the train, and when I got there the train was cancelled. I wasn't particularly bothered as I wasnt in a particular rush, but it just so happened that I bumped into a friend I havent seen for a couple of years who I met at college whilst studying law politics and psychology 10 years ago. So we had a good old natter on the train and I got a text later on in the day saying I'd brightened up her day :) It was so lovely to see her, it was a lovely synchronicity. I then met up with a friend from the 'Speed' project from uni for a coffee and we headed towards the place where we were supposed to meet the other people for the '11/11/11 day of love meeting. When we arrived we couldnt see them and the clocks then struck 11am. Which as its remembrance day everyone on the entire high street stopped what they were doing, the feeling of collective experience was amazing. People were looking around but not speaking, strangely about a minuite into the 2 mins silence the shopping centre's announcement of the 2 mins silence broke the silence in the high street and then a further 2 mins silence was observed by all those present. It gave me goose-pimples all up my back and on my arms. Afterwards It really made me think of how powerful ideas can be in causing people to act, which I'm still mulling over in my head. Afterwards I went up to the uni for councilling, we're going to start the process of EMDR soon working on traumas from my childhood & adolescence. I'm very nervous about this but I think it is what I need to do, i've been putting off having this therapy as part of my therapy for years. Afterwards I brought a new notebook for this 100 day challenge to log the process of the journey the synchronicities, inspired action ideas, inspiring quotes etc. I went to a coffeeshop i'd been to in the morning and had the free coffee from the loyalty card i've been saving up for a year and a half (i dont go there that often) and started the new notebook. I wrote down about 5 actions, one of which I have already done which is email the yoga teacher who teaches in the Wheel of life holistic centre a few doors up from the gallery I have my studio in as she is interested in swapping yoga lessons for one of my paintings. So i'm going to try out one of her classes on Monday!
If youve read up til here thank you!
I'm sending you much love light and laughter