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My last entries (blog, video) were Thursday November 6th, 2008. I was planning to go to be with my Mom again four days later, and changed my plans to to to her in Las Vegas on the afternoon of November 8th. I phoned her the night of November 7th, and then I was awakened early in the morning on November 8th by a phone call with the news that she had passed. I need to write more about this, but not now. For now, I just want to officially begin Season Two. My Season One began on a date that just… Continue

This is now, for me, a time of UN-planning. My hundredth day came and went in a blur, and I'm going to wait to officially start Season Two. I'll stay in limbo here on CCOR as I am in limbo in my life, no intentions or goals other than to somehow get through this time. Emotionally and logistically, it is almost overwhelming, but I have to slog through. I will be my Mom's executor soon.



I'm blessed beyond measure to have the best man in the world as my husband (besides your own… Continue

It's the wee hours of September 11th, and the very beginning of my 77th day of Season One. Perhaps I'll write more at the end of the day, but I just want to say now that it feels so good to be at the tail end of a cold. It didn't last that long, but oh, isn't it great to have that dragging feeling go away?!! As the day went on I felt better and better, and now I have the good tired that I sure as heck ought to be feeling when it's past my bedtime. The other best thing today is that I ventured… Continue

It's 5am and I haven't gone to bed yet, but it's just been too long since I posted, so I want to at least get a few words in. But the words are so tiny, and I feel dumbstruck by the magnitude of my dear Aleta's love. After I saw her vlog about my being a manifestor, I wrote to her that she makes me feel so deeply SEEN. It's just incredible...There's the silly little voice in me that says I'm unworthy, that hates even writing the word "me", but thank goodness there's a louder voice that says a… Continue

A relief that some baby steps are being taken. After I last blogged that I was about to take a twenty minute walk, I ended up walking for about 45 minutes. And I've taken walks the two nights after that, too! Once I'm out there, I enjoy the cool breezes (during the day it's been around the 100's) and enjoy breathing in the scent of the greenery surrounding me. (This is a landscaped path within my apartment complex.) I also made some delicious salads, and tonight made a fruit salad of… Continue

At a Fourth of July party yesterday, my favorite Costco cream puffs were served. There were leftovers, and everyone else was "good" about not wanting the temptation of taking them, so I got to take the carton home. It is now 1:16 in the morning, and I want to lie back on the couch, watch some TV, and eat some of those cream puffs. If I was ready to just have a couple, that's fine, but I can tell I want to just keep eating them until I get sleepy. So I am now declaring that instead of doing… Continue

>>whew! Finally wrote up the Intentions and Goals and the About Me. Tuckered out... PLEASE FORGIVE ME if I'm slow to comment or make "friends". Part of my time management issues will have to do with finding the sweet spot of balancing CCOR vs tons of email etc. and doing what I need to do to manifest the goals I just wrote about. Thanks, everyone, just for being!

So... I do seem to be doing this much more slowly than I would have liked. Part of it is time management, which is perhaps what my first intention and goal ought to be, huh?! I feel like it's been such a busy time in my life, but I know I can manage it better. I CAN manage my time! Whoooaaa, a bit of resistance rose up in me right there when I wrote that. There is definitely resistance going on, my little inner brat who doesn't want me to forbid her to, say, have as much ice cream as she wants.… Continue

I just spend six hours setting up someone's computer, and then I came home and couldn't figure out WHERE to type on my page for the Blog! Silly me! Finally I saw the "My Blog" text at the top of the page.

So... I've been thinking about my intentions today and making notes, but it's just gotten too late, so I've staaaarted, and will write more tomorrow.

This is a PRE-starting date toe-dip. Two days more... I haven't listened to the CCORfreecall1.mp3 yet, and haven't even sat down to really think about my goals yet! Part of me wants to put it off to July 1st when many others might start, but that would just feed procrastination. So I'll look forward, and will either start swimming on the 27th or will just go in to my knees, but it'll be a beginning no matter what!