Too sleepy for a proper update so here's a quick thanks for my wonderful life.
Thank you so much for the amazing people I share my day with. Love all of them every day, honestly wouldn't trade them for anyone. Thank you so much for giving me the time and lifestyle to sit and ponder this life and thank you for the insight on how to change it to suit my needs. Thank you the sweet chinese student I had for the past two days who has shown me that determination is nothing short of a…Continue
So I wrote a horrible post this morning, I was so angry I feel terrible thinking about it, so I won't. I've chatted w/my ex and realize how he has nothing to do with me. Only I control my thinking. He can treat me only as I allow him to and I control my reaction to everything, which then creates my reality. I actually feel badly about begrudging him happiness. He can't have felt good treating people badly and if he's able to change and move forward, good for him. I'm going to do the same. I…Continue
So yesterday I decided to do a new 4 day marathon focusing on building up my self confidence again. I'm sick and was meant to be off today but I was woken up to teach so I'm in our office today sharing space w/my ex whatever he was.
His new girlfriend comes in five days and I've met her and she's lovely and I'm angry today that he has someone and I don't. I'm angry that he was so mean and disrespectful to me and the three girls before me and now he has a relationship w/a nice girl.…Continue
I've decided to begin a 4 day LOA marathon tomorrow and in thinking about all of my goals I realize the one thing that has been holding me back from them thus far is my lack of self confidence. I have in the past been fearless, strong, charismatic and irresistible. My luck has usually been amazing beyond explanation, but after the past two years of subtle rejection, my self esteem has taken a noticeable hit.
I've decided my goal for this marathon is to have unshakable…Continue
Spent the past two days focusing on a person that in the end, always makes me feel bad. At least he's consistent. Will restart by focusing on all of the good and letting go of a situation that in no way benefits anyone.
Thank you for the time and freedom I have to sort my life out.
Thank you for this forum that gives me tools and insight, always exactly what I'm needing to hear at that moment.
Thank you for the eagle ray today. Freaking love the underwater…Continue