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It has been exactly a year..and the changes are amazing. Some changes are baffling, and the biggest example of that is school. All I can say is obviously there is something much better, more fullfilling and more align with my true self, goals and desires. However, it is still hard to realize that. I made that the biggest reason, the reason really, for my move. So, what was it really? Was school  just the catalyst? The substrate to unlock the reaction? What now, seems to be the only question on… Continue

it is late and I am listening to vlogs about the shadow effect. Very interesting and helpful. I am working through some fears at the moment and practicing presence to really benefit from the contrast. The alchemy of personal transformation. It is comforting to know that I will never and can never go back to the old person lost in fear. I am in the know. I know the power of the mind and the thoughts. I am breaking old ways and a work in progress. It is thrilling to know I am creating a wonderful… Continue

I have been wanting and wanting. Releasing my goals to the universe was the part I needed to GET the most. My desire ( money, weight loss..) have been charged with an anxiety of fear. Although subconscious, it was still there. This is my fifth season and I am refraining from the wants, because they don't really change so much. It is not as if I achieve them, then all is well. I have to get my life NOW. Money comes to me, Yes, however it is still a lack in my life. I have put out that I want to… Continue

I do not know sometimes, what it is that I want. I realized that some of the things I " want" are shaped by me subconsciously trying to please other people, family, employer, boyfriend, ect.. Continue

I allow for a new experience to come to me. I am grateful for my job and I am ready to move on to another venture that thrills me and propels me forward. I allow for this experience to be about passion, connection and excellent pay. I allow.