January 2018 Blog Posts (14)

Today was significant to move closer to freedom.

Most days I now try to get something done that I have been neglecting, procratinating on, and that has been left incomplete.

After months, I am now a few steps away from completing 1 out of 4 tax returns.

I am so grateful for...

* Mama and her support

* Getting good news from the Austrian…

If I could just remember to just RELAX and be in the knowing mindset.....

I push and push and push till I'm disconnected from the Divine and I end up willing things and feeling this kind of odd aloneness...I do this every time, yet I still haven't gotten it.

SO this time.....just relax, it's all taken care of, don't worry be happy, stop leaning forward in your chair,…

I just want to capture here that I rencently had a dream of meeting my grandmothers - both of them - as if it was now - ie in the present. They were so lovely! especially Hartinger Oma who I have always felt a special bond with. She took my face in her hands and gave me so many kisses. I felt at home with them and safe and loved. I treasure both of them so much and feel such a strong bond to this Lineage - through food, and spirituality, my body, my longings for Austria, my hair. Oh how I…

I intend to continue on the path, I intend the bliss,the pride,the joy of saying "I'm doing it, I did it and I kept on going, and I'm still going". I intend to relish this new experience of constant clarity and peace I'm so beautifully grateful to be an active, daily participant in the unfolding of my most fit,sexy body. I am. I am so grateful for sobriety that is easy,sobriety that is joyous, sobriety that feels more sweetly,blissfully intoxicating than drinking ever was. I am so grateful…

I'm starting over. I haven't segment intended daily in years.

1. My main goal is to take back control of my days and time. 

- have a plan daily

- focus on the task at hand until completion

2. List all my vintage

- do something for my vintage business everyday

- add at least 5- 12 new items 5 times per week

3. Get ahead of my artwork

- add at least 4 new pieces to each society6 shop weekly

- set up hootesuite to promote on…

I co-create delivering an interview so impressive,so perfect,professional, and polished that I'm asked to come on as a manager, I am trained, I receive a salary of 18.00 an hr. I co-create a system of support so tight and so strong that my fitness and sobriety goals easily came to fruition. I create a self love and self appreciation so strong that I feel bliss in my own company,that simply being alive on any given day is fun,delicious,charged,aligned, satisfying,anointed. I proclaim my body…

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once, there was a guy named Gus. and although Gus was without a passion, Gus's head liked to think that Gus was a passionate guy. Gus's head also liked to think that it was bright. in fact, Gus's head just liked to…

just like training in the gym to shape your bode this is as much training but 24/7. To relax and go by your day makes you fall asleep and the thinking pattern takes you over. To stay awake and to be aware of what's happening inside of you constant even if you just manage to keep the mind clear 30sec at the time it's a progress. Because this 30sec will grow and eventually become your natural state instead of mind clutter (obsessive thinking). 

Today i just am and things unfold naturally. No stress, no worry, ease and harmony flows though me and effects every one I meet or interact with. I blessed and thankful for this day.

Yesterday I came over a documentary that's on my path, thank you for hearing me, thank you for helping me help my self. 

I came over a documentary on Netflix called Minimalism, I strongly recommend it, incredibly inspiring! A have always been questioning the stuff including social media in ower life's. always had a feeling that there's something not right or missing in the picture regarding this hunt for happiness in stuff. Enjoy!

sense season 1 I have repeatedly tried to start and complete a mother season but life got in the whay. Now I have desited to give it another try. This season presence is the main goal and as a consequence I believe joy and harmony is a fact which is my second and third goals this season. And as a bonus I whant to be financially independent to be able to spend more time with my family and help other people by living a contusions life, a role model to how you can be when you are determine to…

Ye old site was down for awhile, but now it's back up! yay!

I was gonna start out with the usual contrast but changing mind thing, but I realized that I do that often.  So that has probably helped to keep the negative around and SO, I know better than that!!!!

What was going thru my mind was that if every single person on this site, sent one thought daily or every…

my bigget longing is to have a deep, alive, loving and powerful relationship with, connection to, and experience of the Divine.

a big struggle for me is to understand who i am in relationship with - i.e. Who is the Divine?

yet the Divine finds ways to show up in my life in truly moving ways. Today it looked like this:

* When i looked for the Divine today I drew a card with the message of scheduling god - this makes perfect sense! If I want a relationship…

Today I am SO grateful for:

1. Alexander and how much he has developed, how chatty he is, and how he tells me every day that he loves me.

2. Naomi and how amazing her development has been, how she loves hats and shoes, and how she tells me "Mama, hier bin ich."

3. Cooling bath I got to take after a hot and long walk at the zoo.

4. Cleaning up after New Year's eve party.

5. Having watched The Secret and being reinspired to use creation…