Yesterday I didn't get a bit of work done. Mostly, I watched computer videos, and had a nap. Most importantly, I did it without guilt. Is it the best way to spend my time? Probably not. But I'm sick of doing things because of guilt. If I chose to be productive, it will be because I truly want to give back, because I have the energy to give something out of myself to the world. May I never feel guilted to do anything ever again.
Spent yesterday with friends, and I think the greatest achievement I can attest to is that I didn't try to be anything I wasn't. I'm weird, I'm insecure, I've got a lot to work on. And I was accepted for that. Because that's what true friends are for.
I'm making Christmas cookies with my dad and finally found a chance to slip away. It's been quite awhile since I've posted. Very long time unfortunately.
Well, this gal has made a huge leap of faith and moved to New York City. No friends. No connections. No job. It's been 6 months of flipping and flopping around NYC. My intention is to find a junior film video editing job. I am a Junior Film Video Editor at heart. Now to manifest it into reality would be quite…Continue
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Had a great senior chair dance session yesterday. They placed me in a new room, so I had new people to work with, and got enough participation going that the supervisor suggested I leave my business card with him so he could recommend me to other centres! Very glad it went well, especially since I don't know this new crowd yet.
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I've begun what may become a daily ritual. Every morning starting yesterday, I sit comfortably and listen to the emotions or sensations in my body. By sitting with them and giving them space, I can gradually establish what my body is feeling or reacting to during the day. As I allow these emotions to 'express', they are laid to rest. Over time, I hope to improve my relationship with my body, so I can better work with it without becoming a slave to unexpected and confusing emotions.
My mind stuck back yesterday with a vengeance - wandering from negative topic to negative topic, filling my body with anger and guilt. It wasn't until the evening that I finally said 'enough!' I realized I was sick of running from my thoughts and fears, and straight up told them I would resist them until they killed me. I wasn't a very enlightened thought I know, but it did pull me out of the despair I was feeling and helped clear my head. As I looked around with a blank mind, simply feeling…Continue
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I have a confession - the last month or so has been very hard on me. I've felt low in motivation, without understanding why. I've struggled in pursuing my dreams, because they started to feel more like chores than things I actually wanted. I'm not out of that now, but I did realize that I was living in my head a LOT, and neglecting my tired body. I resolve once more to put my body first, to trust my feelings more and my thoughts less, and to endeavour to be patient when moving towards my…Continue
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I can see that I have not posted about Season 4 at all until now and soon it is coming to a conclusion. It feels like there are a lot of issues getting working out inside of me and somewhat outside of me. I have been focusing a lot in this season on doing mantras for the improvement of my relations with Rahu and Ketu since the Dec. 22 is my nodal return.
The North and South nodes of the moon are symbolized as Rahu and Ketu and I feel are very core in the make up of each…Continue
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I've created a vision board at the back of my workstation, and I just added some more pictures to fill it out some more. It's nice being able to just look beyond the shape of my computer in order to be inspired.