Well since I last blogged (a week ago) my relationship took a short-lived upswing (literally 24 hours on Friday night), and suddenly last night, my guy broke up with me. I am really really really sad. I haven't had too many relationships and by far I thought things would change and improve and he would learn to love and appreciate me the way I deserve to be, but he can't let go of past errors I made (nothing like cheating, just acting poorly) and he blames everything… Continue
Added by PJ on May 29, 2009 at 3:21pm —
I don't usually post so early in the day (usually I post before I retire to bed) but I do come onto the site if I need to be perked up and get my highs from the positivity radiating by all of you.
However, today is different. I feel really irritated, much different to my post last night. I know why, I just don't want to admit it because I'm feeling so hurt and angry and I don't want to give it attention. However, I also know I want to spill it and just get it off my… Continue
Added by PJ on May 22, 2009 at 3:19pm —
I feel as though I've been in a trance lately, but as opposed to the negative state of being, I feel like its either neutral or just above that in a positive state.
A couple of things bothered me today. One was that I had to take a shuttle between offices for work today and ended up being the first picked up and the last dropped off which was annoying. As well, the leasing office that I complained to did not take the measure I feel they need to in order to… Continue
Added by PJ on May 22, 2009 at 2:14am —
The last 3 days have flown by. Work has been steady and today I had my first meeting with boss's boss which went really well. I'm pleased with my new manager and the attitude of my new team - its so much better than the negative energy from my old team as a whole, although I really liked the individuals in my old team. - I am so grateful for a great job and wonderful people to work with.
I had to complain pretty severly to my leasing office yesterday because… Continue
Added by PJ on May 21, 2009 at 2:28am —
Hello Co-Creators! I had a really interesting weekend.
On Friday night, I just stayed in and caught up on some shows on my DVR. I went to bed pretty late and was annoyed that the people upstairs had their TV on really loud - as they have done for a while recently. "The people who live upstairs will stop playing their past 10:30pm and I will no longer be disturbed by them".
Saturday, I went to this cheese and wine tasting even downtown with a few friends, which was funner… Continue
Added by PJ on May 18, 2009 at 3:18am —
I had every intention to kick-off Season 5 on May 1, but I just couldn't get a grip on life. It's not that I felt really down for the last two weeks...I just felt really exhausted and couldn't bring myself to open my laptop if I wasn't working....
In the process of not blogging enough in Season 4 and not starting Season 5 as I said I would, I lost sight of the LOA and stopped actively practicing it. However, I also have a calm feeling that everything will… Continue
Added by PJ on May 15, 2009 at 2:36pm —
Hello Friends. Once again, I am not happy with myself for blogging so infrequently. I am aware that I'm nearing the end of Season 4 but for some reason, even though I've made some progress in a few areas of my life this month, I feel like I've lost a lot of control.
There is a saying you may have heard:
"If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans."
The cynic in me has been chanting this frequently for the last little while as I feel I've been pretty down on… Continue
Added by PJ on April 22, 2009 at 3:00am —
Hello Co-Creators! I have been really really bad with blogging this Season and I'm not proud of myself. I lost sight of the LOA and let myself spin out of control and the external issues I faced infect my thoughts and take me to a real negative place. I wasn't motivated to try to get to a better place and quite frankly, I didn't want to bring my negativity to a place where like-minded people are inspiring one another to radiate positivity and manifest all the wonders in the… Continue
Added by PJ on April 10, 2009 at 2:41am —
I'm sorry to those of you who frequent my blog that I've been absent so long. A lot has gone on over the last few months and I've been really exhausted. However, I also noticed the less I connect with (which is when I am reminded to connect with the source) the worse things get because I can get twisted into a downward spiral very easily.
So since I last blogged my project got insanely huge, I had 2 family members in the hostpital overlapping (one planned… Continue
Added by PJ on March 26, 2009 at 8:57pm —
I'm very tired today even though I had a very relaxing weekend. Friday night I went to a nice new Thai restaurant nearby. It used to be my favorite Thai restaurant that re-opened and upgraded and it was quite expensive. Then we stayed in and watched a movie.
Saturday was spent running a few errands and relaxing. We had sushi at my new reasonably priced favorite sushi place and spent the late afternoon and evening in front of the TV again. I managed to burn… Continue
Added by PJ on March 3, 2009 at 3:55am —
Hello Friends! Today went by so fast yet it felt so long in many ways...
Work was a little hectic. I woke up this morning to find it had snowed overnight and as a result it took me twice as long to get to work. Luckily I had woken up and left earlier than I originally would have and I got in on time for my first meeting.
I had meeting pretty much all day long with a few short breaks in between in which I got to be quite productive by meeting an invoicing deadline,… Continue
Added by PJ on February 27, 2009 at 4:26am —
Hello Friends! I can't believe how many days have passed since I last blogged - the week has just whizzed by!
My parents came to visit on the weekend which was nice. I am glad I got to spend some time with them. They are wonderful and I'm extremely lucky and grateful to have them as my parents.
I had a really busy week last week and this week hasn't slowed down. I can't believe tomorrow is already Thursday! I'm not seeing as much progress in my work project as expected so… Continue
Added by PJ on February 26, 2009 at 4:18am —
Hi Friends! I'm quite tired today because the last couple of days at work have been really busy, and a little stressful with my projects. However I'm still extremely grateful to be working on the projects I'm on and to have a job at all, especially one that pays well and allows me flexibility.
I got a little annoyed with my boss over the last couple of days. I don't think she is intending to but she is pushing my buttons and has a habit of coming into a project too late and trying to… Continue
Added by PJ on February 19, 2009 at 3:21am —
Hello Friends! My weekend flew by - it started out kind of rocky but ended very blissfully.
I woke up quite unsettled on Saturday and considered going to the art museum which I haven't done yet. I called a friend of mine to see if she wanted to join me but she had other plans. I then started doing some errands and decided I would just go another day. In the afternoon, I got a call from a friend of mine who could tell I was upset and suggested we meet for a coffee. We met and had a… Continue
Added by PJ on February 17, 2009 at 4:30am —
Hello Friends! Today went by pretty fast for me again. I was really busy with work and had a couple of really long meetings. It slowed down in the early evening and I ended up taking a short nap on my couch again.
I spent the evening in front of the TV, which was good as it helped me unwind and catch up on shows I missed over the week. I admit, I went through my ups and downs again today...
I also got thinking about a few classes I've always wanted to take. I thought I may… Continue
Added by PJ on February 14, 2009 at 5:00am —
Hello Friends! The last couple of days have been really busy with work, which has almost been a blessing in disguise as its given me something to focus on besides the things in life I'm not satisfied with which I keep obsessing about.
I got some recognition for a project I delvered at work, so that was nice as its not often that happens to me. I hope to get more recognition for the work I'm doing and get generously compensated and promoted soon!
I went to my specialist… Continue
Added by PJ on February 13, 2009 at 4:10am —
Hello Friends. I feel like I've had an awakening over the last couple of days and am allowing myself to look at myself from the outside and give myself some much-needed advice.
I have felt (over the last year) as though I'm trapped inside myself and can't get a grip to stand independently and have lost faith and a lot of self-respect. As a result, I haven't been honest with those around me. I've been hiding the things in my relationship that are clearly dysfunctional and taking out… Continue
Added by PJ on February 11, 2009 at 6:52pm —
Hello Friends! Last week was extremely busy for me as I needed to get a lot of things prepared for my next big project at work. Luckily things are moving in the right direction so far, so I'm feeling a bit confident in it.
The week just breezed by. I didn't really do too much but I did eat a lot when I wasn't working! On the weekend I watched a movie in on Friday night and went out to watch movies both Saturday and Sunday.
Something got me emotional yesterday and I had a… Continue
Added by PJ on February 10, 2009 at 5:38am —
Hello Friends! This weekend just flew by so fast!
Friday was frustrating at work because my project is not going as I need it to. In the evening, I was supposed to have dinner with a friend of mine but she pulled out of it at the last minute. I wasn't too disappointed. I spoke to "him" and got a little upset because I was feeling so disconnected from him, but I guess that's the reality and I have to accept it.
On Saturday, I relaxed at home and did some grocery shopping… Continue
Added by PJ on February 2, 2009 at 3:53am —
Hello Friends!! I had a day of ups and downs today, although they weren't triggered by anything specific. The more I think about it, the more I'm certain I'm having hormonal fluctuations. I'm glad I will be seeing a couple of specialists about this over the next couple of weeks! I can't wait to feel calm and normal and not emotionally charged for no reason. I also know its to do with my hormones because I've been breaking out like crazy over the last few months, which is not normal for me. Its… Continue
Added by PJ on January 30, 2009 at 5:44am —