So I'm checking in here on CCOR, but also I've been checking in with myself throughout the day as a means of being aware of what I'm focussing on and redirecting that focus if I'm wasting time with negative thought patterns or just passing time online but not actually being productive. What I have noticed is that when I stop thinking negatively about something, or more often my relationships, and instead visualize what I would rather have I feel better about what actually is. Also, I often…Continue
So my last post was six days ago. I was intentionally missing the weekend because I had plans with family and knew I wouldn't be online. But the weekend slid into mid-week and I feel like I'm manifesting exactly what I had intended to overcome. Hmm. Actually in typing that I see that my approach is wrong. Instead of wanting to get rid of bad habits, I should be focussing on mastering new positive ways. Hmm. Not feeling it if I'm honest.
Ok change of focus. I have a friend who…Continue
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So, a few days in and I've begun to notice the little things in my day that seem to be pointing me in the right direction. Sometimes I'm hesitant to speak about my projects at home because there is a bit of a feeling that I have to prove myself here. In New York, where I'm from, I can mention a story I'm writing or an idea I have and people want to read my work and encourage me. Here, if I mention the same things, people seem to think I'm silly because I'm a teacher, not a writer. So not…Continue
So I've always wanted to be a writer. I write short stories, though I haven't been super productive since moving to Europe a few years ago. Since then I've been mostly journalling, but writing something or other every day. I'm home on maternity leave and take long walks with my son most days and on these long walks a story idea came to me and has continued to grow in my mind. It's a much bigger project than I have ever attempted and I'm somewhat stuck as to how to develop it. I read loads…Continue
Yesterday, in trying to clearly define to myself exactly what my goals are and how my intentions support them, I searched Youtube for videos that address self-discipline and procrastination. Big problems for me. Previously I was working and found it easier to get everything done bc I knew I had only limited time to do it in. Then I started my maternity leave and had loads of free time and pushed everything off until later and then tomorrow. Now I have had my baby and find it hard to organize…Continue
Added by Monimons on March 28, 2018 at 11:27am — No Comments
Starting my third season, nine years after completing my first and even in just signing in and defining my goals I've found clarity that I've been lacking as of late. Not writing loads tonight but I'm excited to be back and I hope to read about your experiences, learn alongside of the community and hopefully have something to contribute as well :)
Added by Monimons on March 27, 2018 at 4:40pm — No Comments
Too sleepy for a proper update so here's a quick thanks for my wonderful life.
Thank you so much for the amazing people I share my day with. Love all of them every day, honestly wouldn't trade them for anyone. Thank you so much for giving me the time and lifestyle to sit and ponder this life and thank you for the insight on how to change it to suit my needs. Thank you the sweet chinese student I had for the past two days who has shown me that determination is nothing short of a…Continue
Added by Monimons on September 27, 2012 at 8:51am — No Comments
So I wrote a horrible post this morning, I was so angry I feel terrible thinking about it, so I won't. I've chatted w/my ex and realize how he has nothing to do with me. Only I control my thinking. He can treat me only as I allow him to and I control my reaction to everything, which then creates my reality. I actually feel badly about begrudging him happiness. He can't have felt good treating people badly and if he's able to change and move forward, good for him. I'm going to do the same. I…Continue
So yesterday I decided to do a new 4 day marathon focusing on building up my self confidence again. I'm sick and was meant to be off today but I was woken up to teach so I'm in our office today sharing space w/my ex whatever he was.
His new girlfriend comes in five days and I've met her and she's lovely and I'm angry today that he has someone and I don't. I'm angry that he was so mean and disrespectful to me and the three girls before me and now he has a relationship w/a nice girl.…Continue
Added by Monimons on September 20, 2012 at 11:54pm — No Comments
I've decided to begin a 4 day LOA marathon tomorrow and in thinking about all of my goals I realize the one thing that has been holding me back from them thus far is my lack of self confidence. I have in the past been fearless, strong, charismatic and irresistible. My luck has usually been amazing beyond explanation, but after the past two years of subtle rejection, my self esteem has taken a noticeable hit.
I've decided my goal for this marathon is to have unshakable…Continue
Spent the past two days focusing on a person that in the end, always makes me feel bad. At least he's consistent. Will restart by focusing on all of the good and letting go of a situation that in no way benefits anyone.
Thank you for the time and freedom I have to sort my life out.
Thank you for this forum that gives me tools and insight, always exactly what I'm needing to hear at that moment.
Thank you for the eagle ray today. Freaking love the underwater…Continue
Hello my lovlies! Had a wonderful day, thanks to Abraham and Esther and their little bag of tricks. Woke up feeling blah, which has been the norm for me as of late, but determined to cut out the nonsense and get back to basics. I planted myself in front of my laptop and watched Abraham Hicks videos on youtube ( a miracle in and of itself bc where I live in Borneo wifi is spotty at best, but everything loaded all day!). I found though, that the ones that featured people boo hooing about their…Continue
Four days in and I must admit that this season hasn't been feeling amazingly natural this go around. I think about what I'm meant to do daily, but that wide open YAY sense of being hadn't hit, for the most part.
My world lately, has been focused on this boy that has been an absolute roller coaster for the past two years. Sometimes he's amazing and I feel like I could love him and heal him, a dangerous way of thinking for me. Thankfully he always manages to be mean and snap at me,…Continue
I am grateful for every low that I felt, it always brings me back to center.
I am grateful for stolen moments where the world pours out of my fingertips.
I am grateful for this recent inspiration, may I have the courage to follow through.
I am grateful for whatever it is that has allowed me to be bold and go for what it is I want in this world. A week ago I wouldn't have written the people I've written and I wouldn't have had the conversations I've had. I can't wait to…Continue
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