Last I was on here, I wrote that I had been deceived by my twin soul. However, as with many twin souls, there has been a kind of resolution of sorts. I have learned that when it comes to this kind of relationship or any kind for that matter, one has to think on a more Divine level.
It's clear that I was sensing something wasn't right and so now I know there was another. However he had never had the intention of marrying her. I really don't know, one way or another? But I've let go of it enough to where, I can myself, just be with myself and let him be how he is. I know it's a lot of karma, but I realize now that I can't blame someone for sinning differently from me.
And~ today's world doesn't consider it sinful to begin with. So for me, I have a different calling, but he is not a cultivator, so it doesn't make sense for me to demand he be like me. Anyway. I let go of the attachment for the most part and I feel more like, if he really wants to be with me, it will happen and if we really want our time together, it will happen and if we want to marry, it will happen. I'm just not insecure about it anymore. Weird how that changes when you let go of the attachment to the situation.
When you think of it in terms of LOA, when it looks like nothing is going to go your way, that's exactly when you have to know that it will. Unless you don't want what you thought you did, then you can just change your mind! But always, sticking with what you want, regardless of what's around you, regardless of what others think, say or do towards you, when you know and you keep that knowing without being swayed by the outside or even inside, it comes to you like a freight train.
It's not a matter of willing it to happen, it's a matter of setting in the know.
In many, many ways, it's great to be alive.