A post as I haven't done one for a little while. Been reading lots, and watching money flow IN and OUT in large chunks. I started laughing when i caught myself saying "no! no! wrong way!!" one day at a large-ish out flow, but the net is that more is coming in than out at the moment.
My biggest thing on the horizon though is about work. I have a (phone) meeting with someone this coming week which I am dreading. I know, I know, dreading it will be 'attracting the wrong thing to me' etc, and I have read enough to realise that hoping this person would do something different from teir actions so far was not the right - seeking to be more at peace with whatever happens, is....but its still very hard and I am struggling with it, to be truthful.
This situation at work was the "straw that broke the camel's back' for me and really the event that lead me to join this group: I thought - i need to do something *diffferent*, somehow, whatever that may be. Not let it get to me? Not just rollover and hope that at ill founded and frankly totally untrue things said about me will go away or fade? But none of that has happened. As I say, I am struggling. How to deal with this? Is defending myself vigorously the same as "taking action", that is the wrong way to approach this? (I didn't defend myself tooth and nail at the time, and now wonder if I should have?) I guess that's is where I am stuck. I haven't defended myself to the death, and it seems that by not doing that has just compounded how oppressive the situation has become, as the people who started the action in the first place come back and pile more and more on. Yet somehow it doesn't feel right to do that level of defense, or I could be making excuses because I find this kind of way of being very hard to do? I find it so hard to calibrate what the truth or a good way forward on all of this would be. Argh!
Other than that I am enjoying reading other people's entries and getting to know some of the people who joined around the same time as I did. Such a great group.
May your week and go well and sucess and enjoyment come to us all.