Recently I had my first oracle reading and the last card drawn was BAST!
"5th Card - Bast - Independant - "Your independence is a foundation for your strength and success."
Message from Bast: "Like the cat, you're fiercely independent, yet you need affection and playful companions. Now is the time to balance your social interactions with solitude. While you may ask others for their opinions, ultimately you must make your own decisions. Your freedom and independence are top priorities, so ensure that these characteristics are nurtured." "
We often forget that everyday life can be chains that ties us down. Those invisible chains can be simple thoughts or actions, habits that we have lived with everyday since our minds have allowed us to go back and remember. What did I manifest today? My will power.
"You,I, left it back in 2001 when you, I, mustard up the last little bit you, I, could remember to leave your, my, now exhusband. " These words hit me like a country house landing on top of a lonely lady from the west in the land of OZ. "How could that be? I am so indepentant, so free spirited " I whispered in my heavenly scented room of meditation this morning. How could I be with out will power, I flow with the flow. "Do YOU really? Or do you peddle twice as hard to keep up the appearence of floating along? Your strength lays in your freedom and independence." I sat there soaking wet from sweat and dumbfounded by myself talking to myself . Reminded of a time where I once did that everyday when I was the latch key kid all of 8 years old taking care of my babysister who was 2. "Tami, you got to WILL it good!" I would tell myself everyday. "WILL it good!" I shouted as my daughter tapped my sholder "Mommy are you okay?" "Yes baby I am fine!" I said rather sad to my surprise. "You are crying mommy, you sure?" she questioning as I stood up to view one of the many mirrors in that room. I was crying, sobbing and I had no clue. I let go of the need to flow and I forgive me! Those thoughts washed through my mind as many times as Oprah is wealthy! " I let go of the need to flow and I forgive me!" I smiled at myself in the mirror and then said "WOW that is beautiful!"
As fairytale as this may seem it happend to me this morning and I was reminded of BAST. BAST, the egyptian goddess , so fierce yet so loving. I realize today that I truly can WILL it so and so it WILL be.
I do have the power of will. My will power surrounded me today. I willed not to get overwhlemed as people were escorted out of my building while being asked never to return and there I sat in peaceful thought. I willed to be on time to get my daughter, even after an extremely long reorg meeting, I was 2 mins early. I willed that I make a nice meal before I begin my seven day fast at 10:21 this evening and I made a veggie pizza that some might cry for. I will it so and so it will be!!! I am independent and free to manifest my DEEPEST DESIRES!!
I have not made huge changes in my life or found a new religion. The only change I've made recently was joining the 100 day challenge. I follow the wonderful manifestations, watch the beautiful videos, read the books mentioned and now read the wordy blogs!
THERE IS STRENGTH IN SELF but even more strength can be found in GROUPS!!!
Thank you to everyone!!!