Is that my ego trying to put a vail over my aware conscientiousness?
It feels a bit like that sometimes.
Especially after I had such an amazing spiritual breakthrough last week and was on cloud nine - all of a sudden I am so tired and my brain is slow and commitment is low.
Its the eb and flow of awareness - that's how I am seeing it.
And I am just riding it to the next level in some way and in another way really trying to push to be aware.
Right now I am seeing my mind as the kind observer and seeing how feels.
Letting my mind go through its chattering until its right for him to stop.