Today was great. Which was much needed, after yesterday I felt so run down, so not like myself, I was really scared I might be reverting back to my mired-by-depression lower-self. But when I woke up this morning I immediately dove into projects I had started the night before. I finished my laundry. I also finished making a meditation for a friend of mine. Basically a meditation stone is a decoupaged rock with words to meditate on it. I took a picture as I'm sure many of you want to see:
My friend didn't show up at group today, so I'll likely have to wait another week to give it to her. But in the mean time I've put the stone in a ziplock bag with wax that dripped off "Blessed candles" that I burn. So by the time she gets the stone next week it is going to smell VERY good :)
I was the only one who showed up for group today, and it turned out to be a very interesting 1-on-1 session with the therapist Dawn. She's a lot more aggressive in pursuing information, making assumptions based on empathy and logic, and prying information out of me. It got me thinking, because we have such a good rapport next week I'm going to ask if I can switch so I can have Dawn as my individual therapist. I have nothing against my current therapist, it's just Dawn goes above and beyond. In the past I'd have felt guilty about wanting to change therapists, but I'm fine with it now. Nothing personal, I just need what is best for my recovery.
I also FINALLY got an appointment with the maxillofacial surgeon. It took 3 months of dealing with the densest secretary on the planet, but I finally have my appointment April 6th. I'm going because of my sleep apnea. At this appointment I cam hoping to get scheduled for a surgery where he breaks my jaw, moves it forward a few centimeters to open my airway so I don't stop breathing at night. I was on a bus today, listening to Hemi-Sync meditation music when a voice inside my head told me "you're not getting enough oxygen to your brain, try to make deep breathing the normal way you breathe".. That was the clincher for me that broke through my passiveness and made me follow up with the surgeon's office. While I'm not looking forward to 6 weeks of a liquid only diet following the surgery, I am willing to go to that type of sacrifice if it will make me feel better and live healthier in the long run. I'm sure that fixing my sleep apnea will help with my depression too.
I also had fun writing a long message to Eva this morning, it's always a good feeling when I write to her. And i was looking forward to corresponding with her ever since her last reply to my message. As well I was looking forward to responding to what my new friend Lee Ann had said on my blog here. I'm really liking my new friends on here.
Tomorrow night I am putting my cooking talents to use. My Reiki master Bobbi asked me to make my black-bean stuffed mushrooms for a fundraiser she is holding tomorrow night. I made these stuffed mushrooms last month at our monthly Mexican potluck and everyone loved them. The real kicker to it all is I made them for the potluck because of my diet, they are friendly even for people on Phase I of South Beach. And soo tasty. Pretty easy too. Take the stems off mushrooms, stuff the caps with refried black beans from a can (I add some spices and seasonings for flavor), then top the stuffed mushrooms with cheese and bake at 350 until the cheese is melted and gooey. mmm
Tonight I decided to take charge and tackle a big project. My mom has had a bookshelf in a box waiting to be assembled, sitting in the dining room for 3 weeks now. Tonight I said I'm going to put this together. And I did! :) It took 3 hours, but it wasn't very hard or strenuous, and now there's a shelf in the dining room with books and records on it, a welcome change from an ugly box in the middle of the floor :)
Ending on an amusing question note.. I've seen a TON of incense products out there for attracting MONEY. But I've yet to see one that says it attracts LOVE. I find that interesting. Anyone incense aficionados out there know of any that attract love?
Peace, Harmony, and Love