Hello sweet co-creators!
Everything is going very fast!
How I love this community!
I had an amazing meeting via skype this morning with an amazing co-creator... And we co-created a lot!!! Thanks Anna Caroline!!!
So... You know I'm in hollidays. But I'm going to back work on monday...
And... I'm full of fears!!!
But I know it's not a problem. i wrote a lot in my journal, and i'm going to re-write that here.
1° I'm anxious because of one of my director.
In one of the school of music where I work, I'm obliged to play in the wind orchestra. But i'm not paid as a musician for that, but as a teacher. So, instead of be paying 70€ for 1 rehearsal/concert, i'm paid 15€ per week... (I've 1 rehearsal per week, sometimes 2, and 2/4 concerts per year).
I told my director that I coulnd't participate to this orchestra, because of lack of time, and need to have one evening for me (i work in 4 schools of music, and so have 4 wind orchestra, so 4 rehearsals/week...)
When i told him, he agreed. But few days after that, he was very angry, and yelled at me!! I wanted i play in his orchestra.
But NO!! It is n ot possible, i can't and I don't want!!
I'm going to see him on monday... And i'm really really nervous and anxious, you know like a young girl who's frightened to be arguing by his father.
Ok. I'm frightened.
So... What can i do?
I'm Going to :
If I do that, i'll be really powerful!!!!
2° I'm anxious because of the teachers' concert in one of my school of music
I'm afraid because my score is quite difficult, and i'm going to play with my directrice!
And i'm afraid because I didn't sent the scores enough soon to all of the musicians.
So, I'm going to :
3° I'm anxious because of the performances of my nursery school pupils
Children are between 2 and 5 years old... They know all the songs, but not the staging... And schoolteachers don't believe in the children's capacity
So, i'l going to :
In fact, writing that is a really good exercise!! Now, I can see that I haven't to be frightened, because I'm seeing that everything is going well!!!
And i will add some practices during the next 2 days:
WE CAN ALL SURPASS OUR FEARS! WE WAN ALL CANCEL OUR FEAR!