Getting Back on Course
I love watching television and I’m not ashamed to say it. I also love watching movies, and reading, but television is my preference for entertainment. I love watching a show and I am able to relate to the characters, or I feel empathy for them even though they would be considered the villain that in my opinion, is a sign of a good show. When I was younger my dream was to live in New York City and audition for Saturday Night Live, I love making people laugh, I never did anything to make my dream a possibility other than to declare drama as my major in college, only to change it to mass communications, then drop out of school, get a degree years later in communications, which I am not using and still paying off student loans. I often wonder what my life would be like if I had moved to the big city and followed my dreams, I wonder, but I have no regrets. If I had followed that path I would not have my two beautiful amazing children, and even though that path may have lead me to great things, it also could have been worse than what I experienced up to this point in my life. I believe that things happen for a reason that my fear of not following my dream was due to the lack of self-confidence that I had at the time. Who knows, maybe my insecurities would have destroyed me in an industry full of people trying to claw their way to the top.
I no longer have the desire to act, but I still have a deep desire to entertain people and make them laugh. I was watching a television show last night, How I Met Your Mother, this is the last season, if you haven’t watched it I highly recommend starting a marathon viewing of the past eight seasons today so you can watch the season finale in March like the rest of us obsessed fans. In this episode one of the characters is struggling with her purpose in life, and the questions is asked, what is it that you really want to do, her answer was to end poverty. The response was, then make sure that every decision that you make from here on out is in service of that. OK, so my purpose is not as deep as ending poverty, I want to entertain people and make them laugh, I got goose bumps when I heard that line, it resonated so deeply with me even though I have been hearing this message for the past few years. Follow your passion, I even got to meet Deepak Chopra over the summer in New York City and I asked him a question about my career and he told me that I needed to get clarity on what it was that I wanted. I had one of the most influential spiritual leaders giving me a suggestion on what I needed to do to follow my passion, but it took a line from one of my favorite television shows to get me to do something about it because I know that I am finally ready.
I know that I am truly ready to pursue my purpose in life and I have decided to come back to this forum to make sure that I stay on track. It has been awhile since I’ve been on here, I think I had given up on doing what inspired me and was on the path to settling in life. So, for the next 100 days I intend to manifest a career where I am able to write, speak, engage with people, entertain them and bring joy to their lives by making them laugh and maybe cry, or laugh so hard until they cry.