And today I do feel the pain, I am not ashamed to admit it. You know on the path to loving yourself, you often have to let go of few people sometimes or few familiar things, it hurts a bit but I guess its the process of cleaning up. I had come very close to someone, on one hand I realize I grew a lot as a person. He woke me up literally and forever I'll be grateful for that. I took a chance after I don't know how many years. You'll be forever close to me! On the other hand, you know there's a bit of pain, but as Abraham says contrast is necessary in life. Experiences teach us, not words. And I am glad I went through this experience of loving someone and being loved. You never know, he might come running back to me cause on some level I feel he will. But as of now, I let go. Life's good. Thank you for waking me up!