After my meltdown on the homefront last week....I think allowing myself to feel EVERYTHING has been amazing. I have been realizing what got me to the unfeeling place that I was in. It's amazing how your defenses can build to the point where you are shielded from so many things---people, etc. I have imploded over the years and my circle of close friends shrank. I didn't trust....I felt like people would judge me for being me. Wow. I didn't realize that all of this was going on with me. I am so grateful for this challenge. It has caused me to look at myself and the world so very differently. I feel like....HERE I AM WORLD! I feel myself slowly opening up to new experiences and I love it. I even find myself expressing differently at home with my partner and my daughter.
I look forward to what the universe has in my future!