I didn't exercise for 3 days and feel really bad about it. I should be doing lots of dancing and exercising to prepare myself for that auditions, but I just can't move myself from a chair.
I have time, equipment, program, proper cloth – everything! But it just doesn't help..
What's going on?? Why do I feel so much resistance about exercising??
Is it really possible to enjoy the process of exercising??
I'm torturing myself everyday: "you have to do it, otherwise you'll become fat and nobody will like you, let along getting a role in the musical"..
So fed up with this stuff. Have to, have to, have to.. I feel trapped – I NEED A WAY OUT.
Funny: I got peace at home and started to fight with myself :-)
It looks like I just need all this stress to feel comfortable. Gonna let it go one day..