Day 37

Just needed to post tonight, today has not been the best of days, I had a restless nights sleep last night which resulted me in oversleeping today leaving me feeling muggy and out of sorts. I have had a procrastination day with my studying and as a result of this I have been feeling a little guilty and in a troubled state of mind. I have ended up with a banging headache. I just felt I needed to take myself off to try and relax and meditate to get myself in a better place. The challenge has made me much more aware of what I am feeling and how this effects me. I know putting things off through self doubt or just plain idleness does me absolutely no favours since I am not coming from a place of truth when I do this and I only end up hurting myself and feeling miserable. I know that once I do the task in hand I feel loads better and very satisfied. I just need to remain focussed with it. I did a short meditation with the Daisy Pond meditation JR posted a while ago (thanks!!), It probably was not the best time to do it what with my headache an all but I do feel a little better and I am determined to master it, I feel it will be of great benefit for me, anything to remain calm and centered. The headache has gone anyway!!! I will do my exercises before bed and journal too, so I have maanged to pull a little back. I want to end on some positives, I had a lovely day yesterday with my BF we had a lovely lunch together, I was soo looking forward to seeing him, the pub is in a lovely spot overlooking green fields and the sun broke through the clouds after a shower of rain. We are planning a trip to the coast later in the week, and are already making plans for september holiday. so can't wait for some more quality time together!! I have been blessed today with his lovely company and I think every day I'm so blessed to have found him. Sorry it's such long post love + blessings to everyonexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxTaraXXXX
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