I've been having more frequent bouts with insomnia... I'm not sure if my restless is making the insomnia incidents increase OR if the insomnia is causing me to feel more restless?
Next week I go back to school I made a few promises to myself during the holiday break that when I returned I'm going to engage in a LOT less complaining. Attending this massage school I'm having to adopt some old habits that I don't want to use to make it through the day around these people. I call it my "corporate face" I have instructors that are busy bodies and if they think you don't want to work with another student then they start trying the MAKE you work with that person. I feel like that is none of there business I need them to instruct me in massage techniques not try to make me work with people I have chosen to avoid. It added another stress to very vigorous process of attending and developing into the massage therapist I want to be. I do see the light at the end of the tunnel 10 more weeks at this school then I transfer to another school that can fulfill the extremely specific guidelines of New York state.
I was told when I started this massage school that I would go on a "self discovery" journey and for me ...that has not been the case. I don't feel that this school is bring out posting or beneficial things in my person. I'm concerned that I will let the negative environment influence me and show down the things I want to manifest in my life.