This weekend has been close to a roller coaster. And I've been debating writing this all out all day but I figure I probably need to put this all out there and start working on some stuff that I haven't wanted to for a while.
I've noticed my old way of doing things is starting to rear it's ugly head. I've noticed I've turned my focus on the lack in my life. I have a new job but yet I focus on the fact that I don't have enough money to move out. (to be honest I'm not ready to move out yet- even though I want to) I've been focusing on the fact that I haven't achieved what else I wanted out of my season so far (being more outgoing & more positive)
Another thing I've noticed is that because I'm focusing in on my lack I've become a bit down and out. I'm not sure if this is all due to the fact that I've been working a lot lately and just need a day off asap. (I'm taking off this upcoming saturday FINALLY!)
Because of all of this lack of energy, lack of interest, just lack of everything- I find that I'm not telling any kind of story to anyone anymore. At least when I was negative I was confident in telling my story. And now that my life is great I don't want to relive those moments of greatness or express my joy in those things.
So how on earth does one celebrate what we have in our stories without turning them into a focus on what we lack story?