I feel like hiding. I feel like running off and hiding from the world. I deactivated my facebook, I think this is the only site I will be on. I feel like I need to withdraw myself but there seems to be nowhere to hide or be withdrawn. It feels like everyone sees me and is judging me. It is too much, I want to place a veil on my head and run away. I wish I could run off without the backlash I would get. It may be motivated by fear but all I really want is rest. My manifestations have been haywire..... I need peace this year in this town with the riots and the burnings and the people I love cursing me out, polygamists trying to make me join sisterhoods and job rejections why am I manifesting these things why is my mind so ill? I will take this time of hiding to read and write. Maybe meditate. I am glad people are here I like the positive energy it keeps me going.