The 100 Day Reality Challenge

It is the season to go deep and dark and in one of my groups we are being

asked to make a shadow card that represents our dark side.

Nobody likes to think of themselves as imperfect but when I think of my bad

side this is what comes up through me again and again to work with.

Normally my hair is dark brown-ish black with small red hints of auburn.

Someone recently joked about the madder I get the redder my hair gets.

IT STRUCK A CORD of deep (intense) healing that needs done on a soul level

because my ex used to hate red hair in any shade of it.

He hated seeing it on other people and he especially hated seeing it on me.

but when I use something natural like indigo or henna to color my hair,

after a time it gets a little brassy and the red rears its (ugly) head. (literally.)

I am not a red head but I still have some small issues I need to work on.

I grew up with my ex, we were together in Jr. High school and for 20 years

so I took on his patterns of disliking red hair- yes even on myself.  oughghgh! I know-right?!

Why do we hide our true self because someone else came along and made us feel inadequate to be ourselves and said we needed to change something about our self in order to be more well liked by them and others?

Some things he would say that affected me deeply:

Red as a red haired stepchild

Fire head-fire crotch- about women that were bossy at his work

Q: Whats the difference between a ginger and a brick? A: At least a brick gets laid.

Q: What do you call a gay Ginger? A: Flaming.
Q: What do you call a redhead with an attitude? A: Normal.
Q: What do you call a good looking man with a redhead? A: A hostage.
If Monday were a person, it would be a ginger.
And I could go on and on but at least I have brought my shadow out into the light.
Now it can be healed.

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Comment by Mrs K on November 15, 2013 at 2:25pm
I appreciate your healing hands, heart and words. Very necessary to grow, evolve and to ascend. Peace love light dear ONE. :)

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