I am beginning to show major signs of stress..
I have noticed that whenever I try to actively co-create anything with the guy I am seeing he does something to cause me to lose the entire positive energy for the thing that I had originally wanted to manifest.
My dad gave me a car. I had the car for several years and loved it because it didn't cost me anything.
Within two weeks of him driving it he wrecked it and caused me to be sued for $18,000 because he lied about it really being HIM that caused the accident. So that not being the worst part. Then I had to ASAP buy another vehicle which put us behind on the rent and electric. One small step backward had turned into forty more. At this point I had started to feel like he was irresponsible and somewhat of an energy JINX. My question is could a person really try to ruin another person's life like this? I am trying to think not but now I am beginning to wonder.
Not having a lot of work experience he envied me where I worked because I had been with the company for over 3 years and he began to harp on it, so I got him a job there too. Within four months I found a girl's name tag in my car, I found CD's and movies and stuff that he didn't have the money to buy because we were both in between paychecks.
When the shock and total fear hit me about all of his secrets I reached a breakthrough this week that he is never going to try to create anything positive with me. It hurts to know that this is where it HAS to end. Any success in my life I have done all on my own, I like that and don't owe anything to anyone but he is going to have to find his own way the same way that I did because I cannot help him or try to "save" him anymore. Year after year this happens again and again. When I get us out of something he turns right around and gets us into something else.
So yesterday, he was late and I was in terror that he had wrecked another car. He was over an hour late. After quitting my job due to being in so much pain in my spine from unloading two semi tractor trailers every day at work he tells me blankly that he was caught stealing but he really didn't do it. (WTF?) I found the stuff all over the car and house that he couldn't have paid for. What's worse is it is nearing Christmas so we won't even have time for me to go back to work in time to buy my daughter a Christmas present unless it is something small. I have tried to make it work with him but he stiffles my sense of purpose and moving forward that I try to make, because if I save and this and that it is like he is invisably doing a mojo to undo all of my work to cause me to have to spend twice as much as I get saved. What is this called? Relationship Sabatoge? Co-creating Sabatoge?
I have always been superb at manifesting. Now it seems that he is blocking all of my positive work.
I had to drive over an hour away to my old job and almost beg for my job back and someone has already been placed into my spot so I am so beyond angry that I could completely explode. She said she would see what she could do but I would have to be on third shift from 10PM to 7AM and would have to drive 1 hour there and 1 hour home every day. The tension is so high right now. I don't like it, and I feel so embarrassed over him dragging me down with him like this.