I am going to add more practices to achieve my goals.
1. I need to increase and improve my Buddhist practice. I have been chanting about 75% of my mornings and evenings and lately, alone. I will seek out people to chant with and increase my time to a minimum of 15 minutes.
2. I will center and ground myself again. I want to be balanced and happy regardless of whether I am getting along with my boyfriend. I have already made huge leaps in this area in just one day. I hate to state that maybe I was wrong about our relationship because I was so happy about him and I thought it was a dream come true. I need to turn my focus always to what I want, stay fixed on that, and if he is not right for me to let him go. We moved back in to a very serious relationship very quickly after almost a year apart and I wonder if that might have been too quick. He still has a bad temper and gets a nasty attitude sometimes. The problem is that so do I, not the temper but the nasty attitude, and once I say anything that he doesn't like there is no turning back. He gets nasty. For now I just want to stay away from him and to spend time with my friends again but I don't know how to tell him that without him getting angry and defensive. This relationship is something I really need to chant about because I really do love him. I just want to be happy and successful and want a man to be my partner 100% peacefully and harmoniously.
3. I have been great about getting to the gym and eating very lightly and as of Saturday I have lost 6.5 pounds. Hopefully more because it turned out that the last weight in was the day before my period, where typically women retain water. Since I realized a 1.3 pound loss over the week anyway, I am optimistic to see an even bigger loss next week. However, my super strict eating plan just must be modified because I need to eat and enjoy eating. Before this weight gain I ate and enjoyed eating. I pretty much understood how it all worked and managed to make the few small sacrifices necessary to stay thin. I have been doing research trying to remind myself of what I was doing and now I think I remember. I was working out, of course, but I followed general health rules like eat whole fresh foods, eat at home as much as possible, avoid sweets, flour, mixed alcohol drinks, beer, and follow food combining rules. I also followed a general 80% rule, that 80% of my eating should be within those parameters as long as I am at my ideal. While getting into shape those rules should be followed about 90% of the time, or one or two rule free meals a week.
4. I need to come up with a plan to have beautiful healthy hair. This is still in the works but I am noticing that finally, probably thanks to my improved nutrition, my hair is starting to grow after my hair was sizzled off by my hairdresser/friend back in December. First my scalp was so damaged and injured, my hair wouldn't even grow, so this is a good first step.