Today, the last day of 2009 some things changed for me.........
Today I learned that my friend is getting divorced. What looked like a perfect marriage is soon going to be dissolved. Love went away. Money problems appeared.
Today I also learned that my old flame, the greatest love of my life ( so far) is getting married. P. used to be very eccentric, anarchist, and a rolling stone, very independent...we argued a lot about getting married and having children... he never wanted to get married or have children with me. I was really unhappy.
Three years passed and here he is, getting married. This is the last person on the Planet Earth that I would imagine to get married! What happened? He changed a lot! I wish him all the best! I wish him a lot of love and happiness.
On one hand, I feel devastated. Why? Because I had a subconscious feeling that it would be me. And because he was able to fall in love. And because he was able to find a soulmate. I have not been.
On the other hand, I feel optimistic, because if he was able to fall in love and get engaged, then I wil be able to do it, too. I have never been an anti-marriage person.
I really want to meet the love of my life. I really want to fall in love.
Life is a process, as one of the Co-creators wrote today, everything changes, quite unexpected things happen.
One piece of us dies, and another is born, I guess Alexandra the girlfriend of P. died forever, it is a new start, a new beginning, a new birth!