February! What an exciting month! I am so excited about this year and my journey so far. The lessons I've been learning are priceless and I have met and formed relationships with wonderful people which I intended in my previous seasons. But the biggest thing I continue to learn and believe is that the one thing we dont control is time. That is my personal belief. Its also a way I don't go insane or go through a million disappoitments. For instance my intention was for my check to come this passing Monday and it didn't. There are many many other examples where I really intended something to happen on a certain date, let go and it did not happen on that date but another.
Looking at my overall life, I chose to live this single life at 25. Back in school with a break form the kids, a good amount of girl and guy friends (some I need to speak to more often). But is this how I want things to be?No. I want to perform, I want to go on vacations, I want fun, positive things to do with my leisure time, I want a man that is really a man, which means he is willing to support hiself financially, does house work and loves me and kids unconditionally. I have a whole list long of qualities that I want but those I wanted to throw out there now.
So what needs to change to make that happen? Well, first thing for me is to really know if I want a man or not and if not thats ok. Right now I can say I don't. I would like to focus on my relationship with God and myself, school and my kids. But I am excited about all the wonderful things that will unfold this year. This month I want my relationships with the father of my kids and his family restored. I want to get in touch with a couple old friends that I havent talked to. This month I want to focus on improving all my relationships with the people I have in my life and also the relationship I have with myself. Love love love is the theme. Treating people the way I want to be treated as well. Very simple, but very hard at times.
Affirmation: Love is who I am and what I do