Hey everyone, I've been lying low for about 2 weeks, can't really say why. Oh, there are reasons, but i am going to catapult myself out of this little valley and find my way to JOY again!
I am not down, but not exactly UP either. I've had some health issues making me very tired, so I have been hibernating. There are also some things going on with my family that are challenging my strength.
My Grandmother has aggressive cancer at the moment, it is her third bout of Lymphoma. I am very close to her so she is never far from my mind. I am reading about health and complementary treatments to give her some help and hope. I speak to her most days and we cheer each other up.
There are some other stresses for me at the moment, I have had a challenging relationship with my brother and I am dealing with that at the moment. He has had a drug problem for at least 10 years and I usually only hear from him when he needs money. He is stable at the moment, going to a Methadone clinic, but he still acts like he always has. He lives with my Mother who is an Enabler, has taught him that he is a Victim, and he has the world's biggest chip on his shoulder. It is hard to trust him or to know what to say to him. My mother defends his behaviors and blames the rest of the family for not enabling him, too. So I guess my issue is with them both! My Grandmother (the one who has cancer) doesn't want him around her at the moment, so my Mom is upset with her. There are no words to describe how I feel, though CONFUSED would be a good start.
I am also in the midst of our kitchen remodelling, which is SO DISRUPTIVE, I had no idea how much it would derail my daily life. I haven't had a stove or sink in there for 2 weeks and we have been eating a lot of take-out food. I have not been eating enough Raw Foods lately and I can really feel it.
SO TODAY is my first day of being 50% Raw again. I am having smoothies in the mornings and salads for dinner. In between I eat whatever I can scavange from the dregs of my kitchen! :)
Well, I won't be in this rut for long, I will be having a walk in the sunny, cold air this afternoon. I need to get out and breathe! I will start my practices again today, beginning with this blog.
Send me all a smile everyone, just need the teensiest boost up and this place is a big help in finding my footing.
Love and peace,