I am not at my best at this moment. I have to go somewhere early tomorrow and will be running on little sleep but I wanted to go ahead and get this first blog post in to get myself started.
It looks like the guy that I have been dating and I might not work out... I wll tell the story of our demise some other time and occasion but let me just say that I really loved him and so did he love me.
But still it is not working out and I am not getting what I want or need.
I need to rebuild my courage and faith. I have been lingering in this relationship for a while, knowing that I wish things were different. Now I need to have the courage to move on and the faith that there really is the right love for me out there.
This is hard because I felt he was the one. He could have been. I go around and around in my head about trying to rebuild, and abandoning the whole thing. The trouble is that I love him. That is always my trouble in relationships but I need to get over it.
Ok. More tomorrow. Thank you to anyone who reads this. I will be better.