For the last few years, I have felt cursed.
Trying to navigate life and find my purpose has lead me to many nights wondering if I am cursed to be alone and jobless. (If you are wondering if I am serious, I am.) My attempts to find love have always had me so close and head over heels for someone who rejects me life a plague. Job searching has consist of most of my 20s. I feel like I haven't had a real life because I'm constantly looking for work and looking for love.
When I take a break from life, I feel like I'm wasting my time. So many of my friends have found love and so many of my friends are already set. I feel like a little fish looking out of a small bowl. I'm just trying to be honest and use this blog and community a place to be free. I want to be real and live fully.
I am persistent. I am determined to find joy in my life. Some way and some how.