I'm coming to you all for a little help/advice. I'm with someone that has an addiction, not to drugs or anything like that. But it hurts just the same. Is there anything to make a person change? For the past few years I've dealt with it and let it flow because I always thought, this will be the last time. It never was, even when it came down to me almost leaving a year ago. he told me he'd get help, he did, but only went twice and then lied about going. He'd quit and never told me. I've tried to figure life out for the past year but in a heated moment this morning over money, words were thrown. Words that I don't think can ever be taken back. When asked if I would leave I did not know, when asked if he'd get help the answer was NEVER. I've waited to know what to do, I've waited for him to get help, but I can't no more. Or should I? I hear that a person will only get help once all is taken from them, if that is the case do I have to leave?
I want some sort of sign, I believe I've been given one but I want to be 100% sure as there will be no going back for me. If you can suggest something or a book on why I keep accepting all this and allowing it I'd be greatly appreciated. Sorry for spelling and grammer, I'm not in the mood to even look for all that. I figure this is a blog about my journey and this is definitely a piece of it. Just yesterday I said I'd start standing up for myself and boy did I, I told him NO and words were spoke. Now to see what lies ahead. My heart is crushed, but at the same time this has also become a numb feeling.