Gaaaahhhhh! I understand now on a slightly deeper level...
There is one glaringly obvious thing I need to do to improve my life. It's not necessarily about getting in touch with feelings or reprogramming my mind or meditating more. Just one simple action that I knew needed to happen a while ago, decided to do a while ago and just haven't done yet. There have been a few instances when it may have been the right time too. But...
I've decided WHEN I will do it so UNTIL that time I promise myself I will be confident in my decision, love myself for it, love my situation and stop bloody grousing about it. I am in control here and I no longer choose to be the victim.
I am in exactly the right place at exactly the right time and I can relax.