whats the point anymore. Happiness is always fleeting, once I find a little peace life continues and pulls me back into reality.
I love the sensations of being alive, and I am generally happy, and I am always thankful.
But nothing is stable. Now I feel so out of control, I feel like I am watching myself live but not really being in control of my actions and this scares me. Numbness I suppose? I feel, but not strongly anymore. I don't know what happened.
I try to relax everyday. I meditate. I smile a lot. I have meaningful relationships.There is abosulely nothing wrong with my life. But still... when it comes down to it, at the end of the day, I am utterly alone.
whats left to do?