Most of my life I was focused on school, career and on people in my life. I was constantly planning my future (University, law school, corporate finance, good job, a lot of traveling, good relationships with family and friends). Some of my plans came true, some of them didn`t but I was never really happy. I thought that I need to be succesful to be respected and satisfied with myself.
But deep down I was dreaming about family. I really wanted twins. My mom told me a few months ago that I was a little bit tipsy on my birthday a few years ago and I told everyone how I want twin boys. They didn`t think too much of it, because I never really talked about it. I was diagnosed with PCOS 6 years ago. The dotor said that the cysts on my ovaries are HUGE and that I will probably need some help (IVF maybe) getting pregnant. I did not think about it a lot, because I was not planning to start a family yet. My partner and I talked about having children a lot, but we lived in different countries, therefore we wanted to wait.
Sometimes, while working or studying, i went on the internet and read crazy articles about what you have to do to get pregnant with twins. They were silly (about sexual positions, food, the right time of the day to have sex). I laughed and continued working...
When we went on holidays, I was looking at the children on the beach and imagined how fun it is going to be when we have twins.
6 months later, my breast started to hurt very badly and I was so tired. My period was late. I did a pregnancy test and it was positive. I was shocked and surprised and happy. We did not plan it, I got pregnant naturally.
My first ultrasound was at 6 weeks. My doctor said to me: "YOU WON`T BELIEVE IT! I SEE 2 OF THEM!!!!!!!"
Here I am, almost 16 months later, a proud mother of twin baby boys! Healthy twin baby boys!!! I enjoy every second with them and they mean the world to me.
LAO works. I really wanted them and I now I have them. When I think about it... I never really wanted to be a corporate finance lawyer. I know I can be, I know that`s an option, but I really cannot picture myself doing this for the rest of my life.
I also have to tell you that I manifested a perfect partner. I always wanted to date a single dad, who is respectful and loving and a great dad... and I got him.
So here I am.
I`m starting season 1 tomorrow.
I want to focus on my body, health, family life and I want to figure out what I really want to do in the future.
If anybody read this ... I am very grateful and I thank you!