The 100 Day Reality Challenge

I decided to quit all my jobs and sell/give away everything i had and left Maui a month ago to Come to Costa Rica with someone i trusted and Loved, in order to help him chase his dream. Since i got here 12 days ago, I got Robbed by strangers and also by the guy who called himself a friend to us. My man abandoned me and my heart is broke. Now i'm on my own waiting for the date i can finally fly back to a place where I'm safe and truly being cared for and about. Trying my best with all my effort to stay in a state of gratitude for what i do have and the people that i met that helped me out down here so far and gave me a home to stay at for the remainder of the time. I know i brought this about since i had a feeling things were going to get messy if i took this journey. and so they did. and in a way i am grateful for it because i now know for sure that this is not a person i can trust the rest of my life with. he may be extremely loyal in some ways but not at all in others.. It is not that he is a bad person, it is that he is unable to take the back seat for someone he cares for. He puts his own needs first in order to protect himself. Is that what true commitment is? The commitment to the Self? but i refuse to believe that i was a threat to him for wanting him at my side when i got scared....How will the self ever be satisfied if it does not understand it's relation to all that is, and therefore also partnership? I feel there's an appropriateness to putting others needs first in order to eventually satisfy your own higher self. does a hungry mother stop feeding her child? I know I'm not needy as a child. in fact I am the one who walked away physically because i had already been mentally, emotionally and spiritually abandoned by this guy. My mind and my heart are in a battle and I am drifting between numbness, shock, sadness and deep deep pain.

How can anyone be sooo shut down and SELFish?

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Comment by Neil Walter on April 11, 2014 at 3:17pm
Hey Anna, sorry to hear about your misfortunes in your travels... I hope things turn around for you soon.
Comment by Etta on April 6, 2014 at 11:42pm

Much love to you. I'm truly sorry to hear all this and hope and pray things turn around soon for your highest and sustained good. Stay strong. We are here for you. 

Comment by Crystal on April 6, 2014 at 2:08am

I feel your pain.. abandonment is a devastating feeling. I pray that you quickly move to a safe place and heal from your hurt and pain. God bless you!

Comment by Maree Schena on April 5, 2014 at 7:53am

Considering everything that has happened I think you are doing an amazing job to stay in a place of gratitude.  Gratitude for the lessons and the new awareness they have brought to you.  Please take care x

Comment by Connie on April 5, 2014 at 12:56am

I am so sorry for what you are going through! I hope you are safe the rest of your time there, and that you can make it home quickly. I agree, this man is not the one for you. Life is teaching me some difficult lessons too. You deserve so much more. Hugs! 

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