Hello my wonderful friends!!!!!
I've been away for some time, as you know. I am ready to get back into the Challenge and can't wait to see what you've all been up to! I had to step back from the group, though I still allowed good things to flow into my life without any sort of framework. Some interesting stuff flowed in! My life has been sort of surreal the past 2 months but some amazing things have manifested all the same.
If you read my last blog in March, you will remember that I was saying goodbye to my wonderful Grandmother. She passed away on March 11th and I have missed her every day since. Grief is something that you don't understand until you go through it yourself. It is a totally new experience, to say the least. It brings you to a new level of humanity. I suddenly feel empathy with anyone who has ever lost anyone close to them (and that's a lot of people!). I've been spending a lot of time with my family and getting closer to many of them. I'm helping my Grandfather organize his house so it works for him without her. It is tough to go through her things, but it brings some comfort and healing. Lots of tears and some smiles, too.
What is interesting, is that I have been applying things I've learned about the Law of Attraction to help get through my sadness. I've learned not to dwell on things if I feel myself turning the sadness into a pity-party. I've remembered to breathe and to look for the joyful moments during this sad time. I've also kept my eye on a couple of my intentions, and I've been doing a lot of work in my garden. My intention was completed and the vegetables are all growing and I am excited about it!
I have also begun to organize and decorate our house, which hadn't ever really gotten done since we moved in last September. I began moving furniture and things around and the energy changed! I haven't had a chance to enjoy my house since I moved in, but decorating it will enhance it a lot. We've also spent some time lately coming up with plans to change some things (adding doors, closets, etc.) and we've worked out our budget so we can do them. The kitchen isn't any nearer to being done, but that's life, eh?
I've begun to make a few tentative friendships, something that has been eluding me for awhile. Losing my Grandmother meant I lost one of my best friends.
I have since realized that I need to allow more people to get close to me and not be afraid of judgement.
So, that's it for last season! I have manifested some other BIG things though, and my Yearly Intention is really coming along. Back in January I decided to have a "theme" for the year, rather than make resolutions. My Theme (or Intention) is that I will find Clarity this year, in all aspects of my life. And it is coming along nicely (though not always easily).
What has happened to me recently is that I have been diagnosed with Adult ADHD
. I wasn't sure I wanted to tell you all about it, except that it is a HUGE manifestation for me. Huge because it is giving me that CLARITY that I am asking for.
I am getting a second opinion and am going to see some specialists about it. Not sure what will happen after that. I am reading some books about it and I feel like the LIGHT has finally been switched on for me!!! I have found a link to the part of me that I couldn't understand!!! I am realizing that my brain works differently and I am going to learn ways to make my life shine!
I have started a new blog about the ADHD aspect of my life, I am not sure how much I want to go on about it here on CCOR. I want to have a place to only write about that, and I may need lots of space.
That blog is at: http://CrazyMessyAdd.vox.com
I have also started Twittering, though I am not quite sure why! My Twitter account is:
I have found a new place to start from, my life feels like it will never be the same again. So much has happened and I am starting a whole new chapter. I am committed to living my life on purpose
, as all we have is today. And I believe more than ever that when we ask the Universe to show us the way, it responds. Every time.
Well, my husband is in England for 2 weeks visiting family, so I will be here quite a lot, I imagine! I'd love to chat with you my friends, look for me when I'm online (or let me know if you have Skype).