I am about the begin this "100 Day Challenge," which I first read about during one of my mindless, random Google searches that I undertake when I'm procrastinating...I am at the stage in my life where I feel that if I don't start making some serious personality/mindset changes, I will never get to where I want to be. So despite my innate skepticism about self-help type ventures, I decided to try this anyway!
I don't, and never will, believe that you can will the fates into gifting you thousands of dollars in a few days just by making "positive affirmations," but i do believe that you get back from this world whatever you put in. I've been putting out a lot of negativity. I've had problems with depression, anxiety and eating disorders for 13 years and my self-loathing mindset has led me to say no to so many things! Friendships, romance, professional opportunities! I know that by being more positive, outgoing and enthusiastic, people will respond more openly to me in turn, and many more doors will open up to me socially/academically/professionally. So, while I don't believe this will help me earn tons of cash or get a brand new car, it's a good experiment to try out positive thinking/affirmations and see how that changes my daily life. Also, probably no one will actually read this blog, but putting it out there in the public sphere gives me some sense of accountability :)
My goals are pretty specific (eg getting my scuba diving license or finding someone to publish my book) but I'm really looking to accomplish more general, less quantifiable things. Most of all I want to become a happy, honest and open person. I want to be able to forgive easily and love unconditionally. It's too tiring to carry around grievances and suspicions! I want to be emotionally strong and not lean on my boyfriend like a psychological crutch. And I want to be open to each and every opportunity that presents itself to me...
So voila...I'll probably write a new post every week or so, so that at the end I can look back and read them and see if I see some kind of evolution. So my challenge begins...today!