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OUCH! Speed Bump of Emotions, got me...

I had a real roller coaster day, it was enough to bring this emotional girl to her knees.

I feel so blessed and so proud of the new President and of the new found inspired attitude in this country! I watched TV for about 12 hours (off and on, of course) yesterday and soaked in all of the hope and joy that I could.

Hooray for the Obamas!!!

We also had a plumber here yesterday working on the kitchen renovation. Things didn't go as planned. It was very confusing and wearing, to say the least. I have NO kitchen to speak of at the moment, just a microwave and a toaster oven. Toast anyone???
We're needing to rearrange our kitchen plan, buy some different cupboards, there maybe some structural changes we will decide to make, too. We are officially in the "low moment" of this project.

And then I spoke to my Grandmother yesterday. She will be starting chemotherapy next week for her Lymphoma. It is her third bout of cancer. There are no words for how I feel. I want to hug her and help her and heal her. I want her to fight this, but part of me wants her to not have to fight, not at her age (she's 81). I moved back to the USA to have some extra time with my Grandparents, this hasn't been enough time yet! Not yet. Please not yet.

So, that's my yesterday in a nutshell. My kitchen looks like a bomb went off, my emotions were riding a high wave most of the day, though I was brought low by dinnertime. Can I just go back to bed today and recover from yesterday?

I could use a few hands to hold today, bless you all for reading this and for the support this group always shares. I am so grateful that I have CCOR. :)

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Comment by Tamara Rasheed on January 25, 2009 at 8:02pm
*Straps on my bib and gets ready for toast* YAY Toast!

LOL So much love for you Clarissa and all of your changes and emotions. I have been overwhelmed by the inauguration myself, so proud and happy and weighed down by the emotions of the past that isn't so far passed. It was my oldest brother, my mother and father, my grandparents who all felt the hurt and torment of the civil rights movement, segregation and the integration of schools. My family, my scars, my longing to help create change all weigh me down until I am financially able to reach out and help create growth.

Wow, I know how tough remodeling is and how it creates this total upheaval. In my case, I could retreat across the street to my mother's house when things got too overwhelming, so I can't imagine having to just sit in it. It will get better quickly, I'll put my positive energy in it too to help!

Poor Grandma :( My grandmother got cancer also late in her life, she was nearly 90 when she developed it. She was bed ridden and had very little movement and very slurred speech from stroke. Enjoy your grandmother for as long as you can, she appreciates all of the time you spend with her, I'm sure of it.

Sorry I'm so late in responding to your blog post, I'm trying to catch up while studying too.

Comment by crystalspirit on January 22, 2009 at 7:56am
Claris, this is just too much for one day!! I hope you'll feel better today~ Somehow changes in the house are bringing up emotions that were hidden deep inside.. it's like the feng shui cleans it all Can imagine how it feels to be without a kitchen and look at the mess aaaarrrggghhh For a highly sensitive person it's a lot to cope with Next week it's my turn... the bathroom will be transformed No way I will move in with Ruud before it's all handled lol

Sending you positive energy and creativity!! Prayers for your grandmother- visualize happy times you will still have with her~*

Much love and hugs Mascha
Comment by Poetry Girl aka mytruestory85 on January 21, 2009 at 5:09pm
Oh dear! I am sorry about your mom!! I don't know what to say.. but my grandfather also has been discovered with cancer in his stomach last year and it was a shock but he also had a kind of emergency operation and is on chemo now.. he is okay but still.. it's a bit tough for me especially now that i will not join my parents in two days.. when they'll go on vacation.. hm.. Be optimistic and spend some time with her. I really don't know what to say but I know that it must be though now. Stay strong. btw, I'd like some toast :D

Best wishes,


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