I've got a few emails asking if I am okay, yes I am. I've had a lot on my mind and a lot of thinking to do lately. I asked the universe for a sign on what the timing would be, yesterday my family called to ask if I could push it back just a tiny bit further so the kids could finish the school year. Otherwise I'd be taking them with a month/two months of school left, which means they'd get out of here emotional and be pushed into a new school not knowing anyone. This was a concern of mine too, so will let them finish, it'll also give me one more class to finish for college.
I've been doing my daily getting dressed and eating healthy, but the last two nights I was a bad girl. Hubby wanted mexican and chinese last night so I ate that. Other than that things are going good, oh and I had two starbucks this week. But that too is good since I normally can have 3 a day. So the health front is looking good, next will be to start walking now that the weather is getting nicer. (hope it stays that way)
I noticed something new about me though, the more I learn about myself and wake up to my situation the more irritable I become. Well I don't think I am, but HE (Hubby) does. I think it is that I just won't stand to be treated the way he has treated me for so long. I'm fed up with it and demanding more. Not completely but it is more noticeable now. he took $100 yesterday which will be spent THERE again I'm sure, so I've decided the money I just earned from my internet work will be MINE. He already told me the money he BORROWED from me I gave him when he asked so he isn't paying it back. So I will take my money from this paycheck and next and do as I please. Probably some books and yoga things. I also want to open another account, one of which he doesn't know. I think the universe has woke me up to this and does not want me backing down, I'm getting more strength. I continue to ask for it, as I know I hate confrontation and have always just backed down in order for peace.
Since sticking around at least two more months decided to take the ONE college class I've wanted to take. It was funny, I've wanted to take it but it wasn't available at first. Then I started changing things and getting positive a bit about where my life is headed (even though it seems strange) and one day it popped up. :) Thank you universe. I've also been looking at homes for rent out there, things are pretty good. I know I'll have to get some more income to support myself too. I don't want to just depend on HIS income (support checks) with not knowing if he'll have his job or not.
I went and purchased: Codependant no more: Stop controlling others and treat yourself better (something like that), a Yoga DVD and The Love Dare. (not for him just to read)
Goals: Continue on learning more of myself and reading the books I've been. Get more income from internet work.
Gratittude: Thankful for all the learning I've been doing, keeping the house another month, paying bills this month, my kids, food and my family and friends.