yesterday the 'sloth demon' came and stole my time and energy while I wasn't looking.
Feeling so much resonance with what's going on here on this forum, and enthusiasm about the changes taking place in my own mind (and hopefully my life), the inertia caught me by surprise this week, it was also accompanied by a sense of doubt and indecision rendering me powerless to take any action.
Today I woke up with a strong intuition about the need to be more vigilant; generally more mindful and/or awake, taking things a step at a time, with awareness. One of the first things I realised was that these thieves are part of an army of resistance that show up whenever I experience a change in consciousness; I sense that fear is driving the refusal to collaborate with the changes taking place. Understanding the fear (commitment to my own and others happiness?), and the doubts I'm having is one of my intentions today.
I also want to acknowledge a sense of shame that I have about having ordinary material needs, a feeling that I should be 'sorted' by now, at my age. In short, judging myself without taking into consideration the long and difficult path and the hard work it's taken me to get to this point of 'take off', of being ready to not only manifest what I need but also the things that I want. It feels so important that I do this, and also that I let you all know what those things are as a way of moving through the shame, as I very easily get stuck on surviving rather than thriving.
Wishing everyone here a day filled with joy!