For the past day or so I've been feeling very gloomy, very down, very angry...very negative. I wouldn't say I was over the top negative, but my energy was at a low vibe. Like I could really give a crap about anyone or anything. I felt as if nothing really mattered and who cares anyway.
I was also feel like I'm not my true self, that my true self is hiding somewhere or that I'm behaving according to what people expect. I feel as if I have to hide behind my true nature, act appropriately, blah, blah blah.....
I'm tired of it.
Last night I took my journal out and went crazy with pen and paper. I wrote in big fat words, mostly scribbling , almost tearing the paper....expressing thoughts and feelings in a way that I haven't expressed them before. It felt good, it felt liberating. It felt as if I was channeling something.
I feel a bit better now....not 100 hundred percent, but my energy is leveling off. It could be the full moon, it could something completely different.
All I know is ....I have to get back on track.