Today had both good and bad. I slipped a bit emotionally today but I came back up. I really need to find what makes me truly happy. What am I striving for? When I suffered through those negaitve thoughts, I tired to replace it with something happy and positive but I had difficulty finding something. Now, I do have dreams and goals, but nothing is really penetrating me deeply to the point where it overwhelms everything else. Perhaps I should just keep pursuing what feels good for now. I learned a bit more about custom Warcraft map making today and I had an amazing time doing it. It was really gratifying seeing my action in work and perhaps I will continue it. It really does uplift me. I am on break from the 4 day LOA marathons, I may start up again tomorrow. It is time to recollect myself and refocus. I am so abundant there is no reason for me to be unhappy!