For the past couple of days the word LOVE keeps coming into my experience, in many different ways and has me looking at it, understanding it, expressing it, feeling it in all new ways too. I guess this is what has inspired me to write to you.
I've been asking the Universe to send you to me (in a romantic way) for nearly 3 years now, while I do most definitely appreciate you being in my life as a friend. I believe I'd be the perfect girlfriend for you and I really feel you tick all the right boxes for being my perfect boyfriend. I know the Universe will deliver, I have no doubt in that. I've seen signs that lead me to believe you want me too, just perhaps there not as obvious as I'd want them to be. Which is maybe where my doubt steams from sometimes.
I'm sure you feel the connection between us, we get on so well, we have great conversations, we have the same kind of sense of humour (LOL) and just genuinely enjoy each others company. From the 1st time we sat on the phone for like 14 hours, talking about everything and nothing LOL, I've wanted you in my life as much more than a friend. But I didn’t (and maybe still don’t) have the guts to come right out & say how I really feel about you (to your face). And I think that’s how I got stuck in the "Friend zone". Which isn’t a bad thing, its just I want more than friendship with you, but I no doubt feel like us being friends the way we are can only help for a great relationship.
For the most part I've been doing quite well in keeping positive on the whole situation, even for a while I was just cool on being your friend. (Well at least that’s what I tried to tell myself LOL) And I think when I (sorta) "let go" & stopped "stressing" of the thought of something romantic happening between us. That’s when signs started coming through (more) that has now made me FEEL like it’s likely to happen. And a reminder for me to continue to have faith in the LOA.
Recently, after seeing you I've felt like I'm on a natural high and play the moments we had together over in my head as a way to give me more hope for the future. I'm not saying I rely on you as a way to feel good (bcoz recently I've felt good JUST BCOZ), but being around you definitely helps me maintain that happiness. *Big Smile* - You make me smile, you make me feel nervous (in a fun way) when I see you, your ALWAYS making me laugh, making me feel a sense of comfort when I'm around you.
Then I hear about something that could possibly mean your not looking at me like that and maybe you do just see me as "just a friend", and then that makes me over think again. And then the doubt comes in. And I know focusing on the "negative" isn’t gonna help me getting you any quicker, so that’s why I tend to try & focus on the positive memories that have you involved.
Without sounded really selfish I fully appreciate your situation right now is waaaay more bigger & important than me. (And I'm there for you ALL THE WAY, which I'm sure you know already) I'm just HOPING that when everything goes back to normal, something romantic will happen between us.
I really HOPE you see me in the same kinda light, and you want me to be in your life as more than a friend too. So I'm gonna put it to you like this: I've asked the Universe for you, I know you'll be mine. I'm just gonna do my best to sit tight and wait patiently for you. (That almost seems like a threat!!! LMAO - I promise I mean it with love)
Really!!! I have no doubt that you'll be mine. I see us having a great future together and having a long lasting, fun & loving relationship, from the help of the great friendship we've built thus far. I whole heartedly believe the philosophy that what I ask for WILL come to me. I've experienced getting what I want many times, so I know it’s true. I guess I'm just being impatient at the moment. LOL :o)
I look forward to our future relationship! ;o)
I love you lots!!!
Kay *Mwah* :o) xxx
PS: Universe, can you show me a sign that the feeling is mutual on his part? Something obvious? And also, give me a way to subtly express/show that I want him more than just a friend please? THANK YOU!!! :o) xxx