Hello my loves... I have missed you immensely! That's me working back at the school bus company. I have a job, a car (thanks to dad and mom), and my own place! Awesome!
I have to admit that I do not know what to write. I have written and erased two times already. I want to tell you guys so much, but I do not know where to start.
Friday morning I got a call that said that I my app was accepted for The Gary Housing Authority. I didn't get the message until Saturday morning. It was simply amazing! My heart leapt from my body. It was an exciting experience.You see, I have always felt that I was above low income housing. I was in denial that I had created a low income reality. When in fact, I had created a low income reality! I wasn't able to cope with the reality that I had made for myself, so I fell into a deep depression of inactivity.
This inactivity lasted for more than a year. Oh boy!
What had I done to myself. Well, I had an experience in life that I can share with others and say, "Hey, that doesn't work, and if you are there, this is how to get out." Depression is always some form of inactivity (of your goals and values). We dumb ourselves down and don't do anything worthy when we decide to act depressed. (I know I stepped on some toes, but depression requires wrong action.... drooping shoulders, thinking bad thoughts, making sad faces, huffing and puffing.... you get the picture.)
I see that I created that depression. I see that I created the reality of low income housing. I see that I created penury and poverty in my life. I also see how I created it. Wow! It is amazing! I am so excited that I learned the formula that works! It is the same basic formula always given. I just realized it!
Okay, so I am enjoying my experience. I had one not so fun day, but 5 out of 6 Good Days is not bad! (VERY GOOD!)
I had my God-children over for the weekend. So, I had four kids instead of just one. I want to go visit one of my God-children tonight...well, one from another mother, but I don't have time for that. Okay... enough rambling!
I don't have any furniture yet, just a blow up bed and I think it has a hole in it. I'm happy as a peach cake to be independent again! It's been two years with my parents and 5 years since I've had my own domain. I will take pictures once I get the boxes cleared out.
I do not have a computer yet, so I will update here once a week. I love you guys
. I will try to do some mini updates from my cell phone. I love you guys!~PG