Last night I crawled into bed and began reading "Eat, Pray, Love". I've had the book for over a year. A good friend of mine gave it to me to read and told me I'd like it. I had of course heard of it (on Oprah) but never felt the urge to read it until very recently. Ironically, that friend of mine has since entered into a relationship and lost touch with me, despite my various attempts to stay in touch with her. It's sad that this often happens with good friends when they enter into serious relationships - I've expereinced it with many a friend. However, I know she went through a really tough time on a personal, professional and relationship level for over a year before she entered this relationship and I feel good to have been there for her. I know she took some time to heal, so I take comfort in the fact that she is in a relationship now that (last I heard) she was very happy in.
Anyway, back to the book - I couldn't put it down. I was up until 3am reading and finally had to take a sleeping pill as my mind was so alert when I needed to get some sleep. A lot of what Elizabeth Gilbert wrote about - having a mid-30's life crisis, the feelings of loneliness, doubt, depression, the search for answers from a greater power, her need to escape and of course her relationship with her boyfriend in NY - resonated so well with me. Her words described how I've felt in my last few years - I don't think I've related to a book like that ever. I can now see why it's such a hit with so many - I was drawn in immediately.
I didn't sleep well either, I feel like I was only half asleep through the night (or morning). I had a pretty light day in the office today as I had some work to do in the evening so I took it easy, and met a friend for lunch.
We've usually only hung out as "couples" before, although we've always gotten along. She is "his" best friend's wife. We had a girly chat and naturally we talked about relationships. I opened up to her about a few things and was surprised to learn that she and her husband were totally aware of "his" commitment issues and have been asking him for a while now as to when he will be proposing. Apparently, he's given them "months" that have come and gone and they are as confused as I am about what his deal is. Anyway, I don't want to waste energy on that today, but I found that both interesting and disturbing, but I haven't been dwelling on it. I felt guilty too about opening up to her about the relationship, but I trust her and I know she has my best interests at heart.
I did hot yoga yesterday and am still sore from it today, but I plan to work from home tomorrow and go again to an earlier class. I will also leisurely do my laundry from home and start cleaning up a bit. My sister and her family are coming to visit me on the weekend, so I need to start prepping for that.
Also, this morning, a friend of mine (not one I'm super close to) emailed to ask if she and another friend can drop by with some wine on my birthday to celebrate with me. I thought that was sweet, but told her I'll be busy with work that day (which is likely) so some other time would be better and we'll schedule it. It was nice of her to reach out, but it's also a bit suspect...I really hope no one is trying to surprise me with anything, as I want my birthday to be a non-event this year now.
I also heard from my cousin, who I'm planning my Santorini trip with on email - we're very close to finalizing our bookings! And I got a text from another girlfriend of mine who lives in the middle east but is currently visiting Toronto - I can't wait to catch up with her. Last night I spoke to another girlfriend of mine who lives in Toronto and we caught up.
Anyway, I'm going to crawl into bed now and escape some more into my lovely book.
Today, I'm extra grateful for all my girlfriends and for my sister, my best friend in the world.