Well Friends, it's Monday morning again - and I don't love Mondays, but I did want to blog about my weekend.
Friday went by OK. I woke up to get a psychic reading I ordered that didn't tell me what I wanted to hear about my future, as it relates to marriage and timing, so I was pretty dissappointed. Also, I've let myself go recently and I wanted to spend the weekend grooming myself and getting in control again. So I left work on Friday afternoon (early) and had my hair cut and colored at a great salon I haven't been to before. After that I did some work and met a work friend for drinks and dinner in my area. She then came back to my place and we watched a couple of movies over some wine. It was nice and relaxing and I really enjoyed it.
On Saturday, it was a beautiful day and I wanted to spend it with R - I just really missed him and I was feeling really depressed. I woke up and tried to phone him but he didn't pick up - then I went to get salon services done (more grooming). When we finally did connect, we decided to play golf in the afternoon and then we went for a bite to eat. It was pretty fun and we had a great time. Then in the evening he said something to hurt my feelings (something about the past) but he actually realized and called back to apologize and acknowledged a fault he has of not being able to let go that I've made him aware of. This is a major breakthrough for him as he never acknowledges his own fault about anything. I spent the evening watching TV and had a pretty early night.
On Sunday morning, I noticed he had sent me a couple of emails about stuff I was interested in over the evening, so it helped me verify he is trying too. I did a bit of cleaning as my Dad was coming for a couple of days to visit and had a 2 hour massage scheduled. I have to say, it was the best massage EVER (I am still in pain from it). After that I made a run to the grocery store and then my Dad arrived. We went to dinner for sushi and then relaxed in front of the TV at home for the rest of the evening. I did talk to R briefly in the early afternoon and he offered to drop his new computer by for me to play with since I'd been wanting to try it out. However, I knew I'd be short on time so I told him maybe I can see it next weekend, to which he replied he won't know if he will have it then since he sometimes leaves it at work. Oh well...
So my weekend had its ups and downs, but overall, I feel OK.
However it's Monday and I want to start off my week right and express gratitude for the things in my life that I'm so fortunate to have:
I'm really grateful for my sister, who has called me relentlessly since last week when I opened up and told her how low I feel. My Dad for visiting me and caring so much about me. My Mom for loving me unconditionally and sending me home cooked food. My Brother-in-law who is so kind and generous to me and my family. My gorgeous and perfect niece and nephew who provide so much laughter and joy in my life and are the essence of true love. R, for trying despite how difficult things have gotten for us. My employer for giving me rewards and recognition and a steady income for the last many years, Old friends who have stuck with me through thick and thin and who are always there when I need a shoulder to cry on and who encourage me in my quest for true happiness. New friends who are open and accepting of me and make room for me and welcome me in their lives. The abundance of money, freedom and passion which I receive, which I sometimes am too blind to see and too ignorant to accept. Food, drink and shelter which I often take for granted but is much more than too many people in this world take for granted.
I have so much going for me in this life. I am so fortunate. And I am so incredibly grateful for it.